Friday, June 28, 2013
I've been feeling fragile, emotionally, for a while now. Maybe it's because I've hit middle age and can feel the time slipping away. Maybe it's the physical setbacks I've had over the past year and the official diagnosis of EDS* and arthritis. Whatever the reason, I feel more tentative and more easily broken than before.
God has been working on me as well. Over and over, the message of letting go and trusting Him keep coming up. Trust has never been easy for me. Maybe this fragile period is something I needed to help me learn to trust God instead of always leaning on my own strength. Time will tell. For now, I'm plugging along and trying to not think too far ahead. "Each day has enough trouble of its own." - Matthew 6:34
* EDS (Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome - a connective tissue disorder that makes it easier to dislocate joints. There are more severe forms that affect organs and blood vessels, but I have a mild form.)