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Full of false pride and making excuses!!!!!

Friday, June 28, 2013

Hi Everyone

I posted a blog a week ago. In it I didn't lie. I stated the truth for me AT THAT POINT IN TIME.

You see the Holy Ghost has revealed to me some things this week. Some background information. I am a young Christian who is making some mistakes along the way.

I was saved in October 2012 but have been back in darkness for about 3 weeks. I also have bipolar illness. In this darkness I hurt some people close to me both family and friends.

I at first blamed the news and then my illness for my problems and behaviors. The news filled my head with ideas and I did need a med adjustment, but ultimately I am responsible for what I watch on television read, write and say to people.

My not taking responsibility was false pride. Others forgave me but I didn't feel forgiven. I was led to read a member blog this week on darkness. Then the Holy Ghost spoke to me and I was finally receptive.

I finally broke down and prayed and cried and took responsibility for what I did and feel forgiven. Forgiven by others, forgiven by God, and forgiven by myself.

I am now back on the right path with God today.

I hope this blog might be of some help to someone else as well.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

IAMDARLENE 7/16/2013 12:45PM


Thank you Chris! I had a tough time forgiving myself for things I had done. I knew Jesus had died for all my sins and He had forgiven me, but I couldn't forgive myself. Then one day I realized I am not the same person I was when I did those things. So, with that in mind, I could forgive the person I used to be.
God bless you!!!! love, Darlene

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TEALHAWK 7/10/2013 12:12AM

  God will never leave us nor for sake us. He is a present help in the time of trouble.

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    God knows your heart he won't leave you alone or give up on you just keep leaning on him and learning about him.

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SNOW-WHITE 6/29/2013 10:03PM

    God bless you as you grow as a new Christian. Pray for the Lord to help you and to have discernment about what you allow to enter your mind. Satan is always at the door setting traps for us. If you resist the devil, he will flee from you. I pray for a hedge of protection around you. I pray you will find peace that surpasses all understanding.

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GABY1948 6/29/2013 6:33PM

    Chris, you are doing so well, and I hope you realize how much I and the others are proud of you. You are continuing on the walk to freedom and love. You can be on NO better walk in your life than the one you are on. Bless you and know that I do hold you up in prayer all the time! Blessings!

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SUNNY332 6/28/2013 5:37PM

    You are doing good so please give yourself a break. You are also dealing with a mental illness and from past experience, you know that alone can reek havoc. Turn your illness over to Him and seek His guidance (from the scriptures) every day and keep your eyes focused on Him and the word. satan would like nothing more than to knock you off you feet so stay strong and cling to His word and His promises.

Hugs, Sunny

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LOISJOHN14VS6 6/28/2013 5:03PM

    Keep on growing. We are all human and we have a great big forgiven Lord. It is wonderful that you ask others to forgive you. You are walking the talk as a believer.
God bless you; I am proud to call you brother in Christ.

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EDITOR 6/28/2013 5:03PM

    This ol' and emoticon dog, only naps and I have read this, Chris. There is no greater Love than what the Father bestows upon us by Christ's merit, empowered by the Holy Ghost. God bless as you go to work the next two days! emoticon

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  Chris you are loved so my by our Lord and Father God and all your sins are forgiven, past, present and future.

You cannot base your salvation on your feelings but on the word of God and what the word says to you about the truth of being born from above and once saved always saved and you are going to heaven no matter what because you belong to our Lord and Savior and our Father and you are sealed with the Holy Spirit in your spirit and you are like vacuumed sealed in your spirit with the new nature of Father God and you are one third and maybe born again and are just waiting for the redemption of your physical body to be transformed into your new eternal spiritual body that can go through walls...the best is yet to come.

Just believe how much you are loved. His grace has you covered no matter what you do.

We all do the same things and some of us even worse.

Just keep your focus on Jesus and not on your mistakes or shortcomings, He really does have you covered with His grace, love, truth and forgiveness.

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LIVELYGIRL2 6/28/2013 4:22PM

  Chris, does it make you feel better to know most all of us try and rationalize some attitude, behavior or thoughts. It means we are human. Now that you know the Lord, you have the amazing coach and resource of the Holy Spirit.

We learn to recognize when it's conviction ( God's voice to correct, improve, change our thinking and what we are doing... But we also get beat up by others expectations, our own disappointment of ourselves, and the enemy really wants us to feel condemned.

It takes practice to find out that our being forgiven, has little to do with how we feel. Our feeling are constantly changing and influenced.

As for having Bi-Polar, it does influence you, but it's the entire picture. I used to have a hormone disorder. It must certainly messed with my emotions. I had to learn to use wisdom with media, exercising, reducing stress, eating patterns, my words, feelings, ect. There were times I did well with it, and other times it overwhelmed me and had alot of impact.

God knows this.

Give yourself some credit, that your longing and desire is to please God. Your motive is proper.

When we renew our minds, we find some relief... and other occasions we are impacted more.

God is honored that you have the courage to express pride influencing you. We all deal with this.

he wants you to receive is grace and move on. When you focus on the right good parts in your life and the improvements on blessings... peace grows. emoticon

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FAITHGIRL91 6/28/2013 11:53AM

    Chris, you are doing great, honey! We are all growing in Christ. Just keep moving forward, sweetie! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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GARDENSFORLIFE 6/28/2013 11:48AM

May God bless You!
Have a great weekend!
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AVANELL 6/28/2013 11:44AM

    We grow from faith to faith and glory to glory as God reveals things to us and we put them into practice in our lives. You're moving on, Chris; don't look back but continue to keep your eyes on the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus for your life. You're doing great!


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1CRAZYDOG 6/28/2013 11:26AM

  Proud of all the progress you've made Chris! Stay true to Him and you can't go wrong.


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