The Journey Begins.... AGAIN???!!!
Friday, June 28, 2013
I have been here before. I have failed and tried again and only failed again. The biggest reason?? I guess you can say that I just plain GAVE UP. It wasn't easy! For me, food is the enemy! Now don't jump to conclusions. Let me explain that it is not because I eat to much! I suffer from starvation mode. When the kids were in school, I could get up and see them off to school. They would eat and head out the door, no big deal. Mom had a mountain dew. I would go on and search the internet or do a few things around the house... (wasn't too much because I had no energy) but I would be sipping on mountain dew all day long. I wouldn't eat though. The kids would come home from school and I would be reminded to get dinner on. Wait??? Food??? What did I eat today? NOTHING!!!!!!! :-O No way! I can't believe that I didn't eat all day! OK, so I would promise myself that I would eat something tomorrow. That tomorrow never came for me. The only time I ate during the day was on weight watchers!! Then I felt like that typical portrayal of a fat person. You know the one I am talking about! That fat person sitting there and eating ALL DAY LONG!!! Non-stop eating all day!!!! But each time I went to be weighed in... Guess what??!!! I lost weight! How was I losing weight when I was stuffing my face. I soon learned it was commonly called "starvation mode".
Anyway, we moved to our new home almost a year ago. In March, I quit smoking. Approximately 2 weeks later, I lost my taste for Mountain Dew... (at least most the time)!!! I still occasionally think I want one. I am still surprised that between smoking and the dew... I don't miss the smokes!!! I started having cravings for healthy foods. Pineapple is my favorite, especially fresh!!!! Fresh fruits are to die for, for me!!! Water has become a staple, along with pink lemonade. I know there is a lot of sugar in lemonade... but it is still better than dew!!! I will slowly wean myself off the lemonade except for an occasional drink! I still can't get the scale to move, or the clothes to feel loose. That is why I am here AGAIN!!! I have to try and find a way to get these sizes to go down! I have to see that scale eventually move! I do know that muscle weighs more than fat but when nothing is changing... something isn't going right!!! Good luck all and wish me luck!!! TY