The return of motivation . . . for now, anyway
Thursday, June 27, 2013
Today is a strange mixture for me. It's Thursday, a work at home day and an "I wish I could run on the lunch hour" day.
Work was off and on nuts today. When the co-workers are spread across three time zones, working at home isn't all *that* much less interrupted than working in the office.
I still can't run, and I still can't walk briskly. My walking gait has been upgraded from painful hobble to competent limp . . . which becomes painful limp if I forget myself and try to go too fast. That makes this the third day in a row of not getting 10K steps in.
But somehow this isn't bothering me much. I trimmed my calorie range today, giving myself permission to eat less while I'm not able to move as much as I'd like. And with no running and no intentional walking, I took a bike ride at noon. It wasn't as long as I'd like, being time limited; but I got it in before the showers that were forecast for this evening. Having ridden 32 minutes on a bike at lunch really helped me deal with the work craziness in the afternoon.
The difference between now and two days ago is, a piece of motivation came back. This happened during a bike ride yesterday evening. I got to almost 7 PM without 10 minutes of exercise, and went out to do a short bike ride just to keep the 10 minutes of exercise streak alive. Let myself be routed by the traffic, and ended up riding around the local college campus. Traffic was almost nonexistent on campus, and I found myself working harder than I have on a bike, because I wanted to make the limited exercise time count. I ended up averaging a bit quicker than 14 mph, compared to my usual rides averaging between 12 and 13 mph. And I took two extra laps around an oval on campus, because it felt good to be pedaling and there was no traffic.
That motivation carried over from yesterday to today. The bike ride this noon was slower than yesterday evening, but still a shade over 14 mph. And there was extra distance added on to make it last a half hour. And most important, I wanted to get out there before the rain!
Externally, this doesn't look that much different than the past few days. I'm still controlling what I eat, though eating a little less today. I'm still doing pullups and pushups in the morning, though this morning I added the exercises the PT wants me to do. I'm still not getting as many steps in as I'd like, and I'm still not doing TGUs lest I aggravate the foot. But I feel better about things, and I'm looking for ways to do better instead of just trying to get through.
Motivation. Positive attitude. It comes, it goes. For now, it has come back. It is a gift, and I'm savoring it today. I hope it's still around tomorrow.