Thursday, June 27, 2013
I am kind of distressed that my lovely new boyfriend actually has some mental health issues - I went shopping with him and he bought three bags of museli, three cartons of juice - I thought he was just stocking up - but now I know he's got some OCD I am thinking differently.
Today we went for a lovely walk - really lovely. We had a picnic lunch by the sea, then walked to another place where we had a cup of tea (and I had a date slice). But when he dropped me off later, he looked at me and said "you might like to change your shirt - there are a couple of spots on it". Alarm bells rang!
I said nothing. When I got home I checked my shirt - there were two absolutely miniscule traces of food on my shirt - so, so small and definitely no reason to change my shirt.
However, I am still not stuffing to squash any uncomfortable feelings!
I sat and had a cup of tea in the garden - just listened to the birds.
Then I got out my shears, and went around chopping back the hedges and bushes which were over-growing - got my energy out there!
And I am going to run and run and strength train and do yoga and I'm going to work my body to deal with these emotions.
I cannot express how wonderfully empowering this feels - I have always used food before - and it never worked! Through doing the Spark challenges, and reading all the wonderful blogs and information on this site, I now find that the tools I have to deal with life's challenges are much more health-supporting!