Thursday, June 27, 2013
I, like many others, have gotten sucked in. At first I liked finding people I used to know, then I liked sharing funny pictures of cats or whatever, posting funny stories about my Littles, and complaining about the government. Eventually I got sucked into the games (Candy Crush is the place all creativity and productivity go to die, and several good ideas are laid waste amid the removed jelly of my past), but lately I have noticed something, a shift of not only consciousness, but overall disposition in Zuckerland. I am noticing more and more the sad sob stories about the end of relationships that aren't meant to be in the first place, followed by the immediate rekindling of said relationships and confusion as to why one's friends find the re-animation of the relationship an exercise in futility. I am noticing the use of FB as a platform to further one's agenda, whatever it is at the moment. I am noticing the use of FB to avoid one's own problems by borrowing the problems of others in the form of unsolicited advice and gossip.
Yesterday I threw a pre-menstrual hissy fit and deactivated my account, which in turn caused the formation of a search party only for my dear concerned friends to discover I was fine and just needed a break. I re-activated around 1 AM this morning for the reason I initially started - to keep in touch with people I have no other way of keeping in touch with, because heaven forbid I actually pick up a phone.
I am a poor manager of time and resources. That is a huge reason for my being so, well, HUGE. Facebook is the last thing a girl like me needs. I have an attention deficit disorder that only applies to things I feel I have to do. I rebel against responsibility, because who is Adult Me to tell My Inner Child she should have to do anything? But Adult Me knows My Inner Child better than anyone, and she knows Inner child Jessica needs to get her crap together.
Yesterday's events led me to wake up this morning and do a fitness evaluation - the first ever since The Hub and I started living together 6 years ago and wasted loads of money on our first gym membership that went nowhere. It was not wonderful. Just as I suspected I was 'Below Average.' That's fine, I was expecting it. The problem I had with it was more about my frustration with not being able to do more than 7 burpees in 60 seconds (BTW, Sparkpeople, putting 'Burpees' in the workout database would be nice). Anyway, I am down 12 lbs according to my tracker, and about 3 inches, so I can't complain too much.
I think it is best that I spend my computer time in a more positive place, so my goal for July is to spend only about an hour a day messaging and playing games on FB and whatever other time doing worthwhile stuff.