Thursday, June 27, 2013
Talk about timing. After a few weeks of almost NO posted loss, and a whole week of just NOT sticking to my diet, I am just getting back on track. And of course, right on time for motivation (and another trip out of town) comes a SparkCoach session about what to do when you "mess up." Well, what I did was finally put a stop to my "You might as well eat whatever, because you have already been bad today, were bad yesterday, etc." thinking and feeling. I got on the scale and was honest about what my week of indifference did (made me gain 4 pounds and put me back over the 230 mark, something I NEVER wanted to see again. Even though I have been religiously sticking to my activity goals, my diet went WAY out of control after a weekend vacation followed by a family gathering followed by a girls day. But i am back on track, and back under my mark...227.4 today, actually my lowest official weigh in yet! I am going to bust through my plateau and finally hit that 10% mark, as well as my 1/4 of the way to goal mark...I can feel it. I am going out of town yet again...this time my MIL is having foot surgery and we are going up to help her get through the first few days of recovery. I have a plan, and here it is:
Split every meal (either with someone, or put half in a to-go box for later) even if we go to steak n shake and I get a frisco and cry because I want the second half so bad it hurts!!!
Get my steps in by walking, around the complex, around the hospital, wherever, just to get my steps in.
Take bananas with me so I have a point friendly snack for in between meals.
Eat in at least one night and make the baked brie (which I will look up the points on before I make it so I know how much I can have!)
I will NOT get there and tell myself I am on vacation or deprived just to excuse bad eating.
I will allow myself large iced coffees from racetrac since I will be without my beloved Keurig.
I will Spark, everyday, to remind myself of these goals.
I will lose weight while I am there, I will come back weighing lightly less than I do today because i am going to do THAT good!
It really is about 1 step back and two steps forward. I am not saying I will never screw up again, but next time I eat too much or miscalculate points, or have something sweet, I will stop. I will appreciate what I had and I will NOT continue down a destructive path. I will NOT undo all of the good things that I have worked so hard for the last 4 months. This is a lifestyle change and I will be able to have friscos, but I will not be able to have them every day. Right now, I need to ask myself before every bite---does this taste better than being skinny feels? Does this taste better than I used to feel when I was thin and happy with myself? Will this be more satisfying than hearing my daughter call me skinny? The answer should always be NO. 3 bites of the bad stuff when I really want it, and then DONE!