Thursday, June 27, 2013
I have found it so hard to be motivated lately! The past year, my motivation to work out and eat healthily has gone from 100% to 10%. It is very discouraging. The fact that my motivation is sinking is just another hit to my pride and motivation.
At the beginning of June, I bought my wedding dress. I love the way that it looks and the way that it makes me feel when I am wearing it. I just feel like myself. And I feel beautiful.
When I went wedding dress shopping, I felt amazing. The wedding dress consultant was spectacular - every dress that she pulled for me made me look awesome. I have never, ever felt so beautiful while trying on clothing in my life. People were coming from around the dress shop to see me in these dresses and telling me how great I looked. They told me I was made to wear wedding dresses and that I should model them! While I know it is their job to make people feel great, I truly believed it in that moment. While I am not at my "ideal" weight or size, I can still look and feel fantastic.
I have my dress! I tried it on again this past weekend and made a commitment to myself to get that motivation back. And I am not sure what's stopping me - each time I do work out, I feel so great and wonder why I haven't done it consistently. I miss the feeling so much. It is so much better than that extra half an hour of sleep in the morning or that cheeseburger after work. I need to remember that.
Anyway, this blog was a little bit pointless, but I needed a place to share my thoughts right now. I have set some shorter-term weight loss goals, so that I can work to achieve them more quickly and be better able to direct myself. Phase 1 is losing at least 6 pounds by the beginning of August - wish me luck!