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Thoughtful morning

Thursday, June 27, 2013

It used to be that reading other people's success stories depressed me. I would think that there was something wrong with me because I can't do what they did in that period of time. I would beat myself senseless for lacking motivation, willpower, sheer desire to accomplish this. From there I would tell myself what a useless bag of air I was, taking up space in a world that doesn't want me, etc. Like I said, I'd get pretty damned depressed over it. I'm sure many others felt the same way I did, as I am sure that there are many who still get caught in that circle.

The last two years have changed me. I know that this is different, not because I have successfully lost 42 pounds in the last two years, not because I've kept it off, not because a scale told me. It's different because I am different. It's not about a number on a scale anymore. It's about my health. The number I focus on now doesn't start with something on the floor. It's the number I get from my bloodwork when they test my A1C. It's how I feel when I get up in the morning, when I am moving about doing things, when I am at rest. It's about the energy I have that I didn't seem to have before. It's about the quality of life I have now that I didn't have before.

So when I read the story about the woman who lost over 100 pounds in a year this morning, instead of wishing it was me, I was happy for her success. And it made me think about what I have accomplished. The number on the scale may not be moving right now, but the A1C number IS moving in the right direction, and that's enough for me!

I AM doing this! That woman's journey is not mine. I have a different path and different challenges. Keeping that in mind while I continue down my path will make the difference between the way I USED to think about myself and how I see myself NOW.

Something to keep in mind.
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    You are an incredibly wise woman. Thanks for sharing! I loved your blog post!!! emoticon
    1725 days ago
    All I can say is I have goosebumps for you reading this blog. What a wonderful realization to come to in this journey of developing a healthier lifestyle. THAT'S what it's all about.

    You have just given a whole lotta people some wonderful perspective, including ME! Thank you.
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  • BRADMILL2922
    Everyone has their own journey! You can only do you so do you the best that you know how! You have lost 42 lbs so far so you are already a success! Keep it up!
    1725 days ago
    Go for it!
    1726 days ago
    Oh--- I am so happy to read yer response on Spark-----Heavens!--You are doing well!--Yu have lost 42 pounds--Keeping that off too is a major accomplishment!-----Everyone loses weight at a different rate---and look what we learn in the process?---LOL---(Yu have learned all about my family--my dogs--himself--LOL)------Good blog!-Lynda emoticon
    1726 days ago
    I love it! Thank you for sharing!
    1726 days ago
    I couldn't have said it better! We all have our journey and fast isn't better, we have to learn along the way. Yes, that A1 C number is so important and a great measure that you are dong so good!
    1726 days ago
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