Self Control or Avoidance?
Thursday, June 27, 2013
One day removed from the 101. So, I basked in the spotlight a little yesterday. I ended up meeting some friends to play trivia and I did decide to splurge a little and got a chicken quesadilla. Yum! In my defense I ate later than normal since I was hurrying to get to the gym and ride so I could make it out with the friends.
I got the inevitable questions, how did you do it, ďexercise and diet or exercise or diet? ď My response was, both of course. You canít make this happen without doing both. Then, ďyou must live at the gym?Ē Nope, probably the max time I spend at the gym is 90 minutes on any given day. Yes, 65 of those minutes are spent on the recumbent. But the other 30 minutes are spent relaxing in the sauna and showering. Which you would be doing anyway. Now, granted, the last few weeks have been starting to expand the exercise time. I have started adding in some weight training and the cardio sessions are starting to get longer. Especially when I walk home from work. More than anything those are getting longer due to some changes to my goals. The strength training is strictly vanity. I donít want the arms looking too baggy when I reach my goal. Plus I am still holding off riding on the road and arm workouts will help with that.
Wow, I just re-read the second last sentence. Particularly the last 5 words. When I reach my goal. Had to count that several times to make sure it was 5 words. You know us accountants. It may sound weird, but I am not sure I have ever uttered those words till then. And if you asked me, I would have been less than confident 2 weeks ago even. I am still not fessing up to being 100% confident I will reach it, but the goal is there, in sight so to speak.
But, I am finally starting to make fitness and diet a major part of my life. I try not to be obnoxious about it, but it is there. The friends I play trivia with have been giving me a good natured hard time about not going very often. They say it is all about moderation. Self control. Yep, you are right. Evidently something in your make up says go have 2 wings and one beer and itís a good night. Something in mine says when 2 wings are good, 12 are better. Another beer? Sure! The part they donít understand is, me skipping isnít avoiding, it is me practicing my self control. And that is the interesting part. What is self control to me, may seem avoidance to someone else. So be it! I am practicing my self control by removing myself from the situation that put me where I was. So friends need to accept that. The one thing that drove me nuts yesterday were all the people asking how I was going to celebrate. Are you going to the all you can eat pizza place for lunch? Want to go to the Chinese buffet? NO! those are two places I never plan to go to lunch again. I canít. Some people have the control to see all that food and not eat. My control is not even seeing the food. Honestly, I hope I learn to get past that. But it is what I need to do right now.
I think that is the biggest thing I have taken from this so far. Telling myself it is okay to do what I need to do, not just do what is expected.