Thursday, June 27, 2013
I got in a run today WITHOUT listening to my music. That is a big deal for me since I love music and enjoy listening to it while I workout. I had my ipod attached and the earpieces in my ears for the entire turn, but never listened to one song. Today I used my run time to clear my mind and prepare for a meeting.
I started a new job last year. My boss is a person that I have known for a few years and to make a long story short I have come to realize that I can't trust her. I knew that I could not trust her prior to taking the job, but it has become more apparent now that I have worked with her for a year. Part of me is wishing that I hadn't taken the job, but I needed the additional income when I took the position and still do. On Monday she informed me that she had found a new job and that she would be leaving in a few weeks. Over the past few days it has become apparent that she is leaving because her accomplishments over the past 3 years are being questioned by board members. It has been brought to my attention that my wonderful boss may have tried to "throw me under the bus" to take blame for her some of her shortcomings.
I have experience in leadership roles so I have worked hard to make sure that I never gave my boss the impression that I was out for her job. She "jokingly" questioned me about wanting her job more than once. Well, in today's board meeting I plan to make sure that all board members know what I have been doing and exactly what my role in the organization is--I was brought on through a grant to work directly with the families that the organization serves--not sure that the board or my boss have ever really had a clear picture of this. The assistant director wrote the grant to get the funds to hire me specifically, but the boss changed the grant to include goals that she has not worked on which has created problems. These problems are what she seems to be blaming on me in an attempt to save her reputation.
During my run I was able to clear my mind and think about what I need to share in my update to the board at today's board meeting. I also thought about how I need to share this information--my wonderful boss is still the boss until her last day so I need to be mindful of that. I had planned to apply for her job in hopes of quitting my other job, but I am not sure that I can do anything more than keep my current position with the agency.
All of this had me upset yesterday. This morning I didn't feel much like working out and wondered if I could complete my 30 minute run. But, once I started running, I prayed, then I began thinking and strategizing how to deal with my situation. I am so glad that I started running. Before I knew it I was done with my run and ready to take on the meeting. I am not sure what the outcome will be with my job, but whatever it is I will face it and I will keep praying and keep running.