Thursday, June 27, 2013
I've noticed something new about myself. I've got more energy. I've got more patience with the kids. More desire to get up and do things. The silly Kerry I knew when I was younger has made a comeback. I go through my day generally in a good mood.
I didn't realize I wasn't before, but I can definitely say for the past few days I've got a smile in my heart if not on my face.
I've been thinking and I think I can put my finger on it. I've been moving more and eating better and this is my body's way of saying thank you.
My scale finally bit the dust so I can't even say weight loss is to thank, and so far my clothes don't feel any looser. But I've been active. And eating balanced meals and trying super hard not to binge on crappy food. I log my food when I have a chance, but I've been so busy staying active with the girls and then working at night that I haven't had time.
I'm kind of glad my scale is broken because I don't want this high to end. I'm afraid it wouldn't show any progress and I'll lose this wonderful, delicious motivation. I still stand on it every morning to see if the electrical current can pass through the corroded anodes, but I breath a sigh of relief when it doesn't show a number. I'll get a new one when I can afford it, but money is still as tight as ever. It just doesn't seem to get me down as it used to.
I look at the sunshine through my window and I can't wait to get outside. Too bad the lawn doesn't need it right now, because I'd really like to get out there and mow it and exercise my legs and arms and abs and SWEAT! Thirteen year old Kerry is standing slack jawed in disbelief right now. I'll do some pilates while the girls eat their breakfast then we'll head out for today's adventure.
Its nice to focus inward for once.