My blogs are about me, and how I am dealing with life. They are NOT intended to be a critique of my workplace, any of the people I work with, my family members, or any of the other people in my life. They are truly "all about me", and dealing with the feelings that present themselves to me.
Some of the things I say *could* at times offend someone who is on the other side of my feelings, and *could* turn into a he-said, she-said flame war if it went that way (and the other person was aware I said them). When I wrote yesterday about a particular e-mail not being an apology, for example, could cause the writer of that e-mail to become defensive. And I'm not interested in a non-productive distraction.
I thought about this, and as a result, chose to take two of my blogs down, because they mentioned events at work and had a bit more "opining" than I am comfortable with, dancing a line. This is a fact: I've been mandated to work overtime. This is a perception: We are all under a lot of stress right now and I'm more sensitive to what I perceive as criticism when under stress.
What it's really all about is me... and what I do about my feelings. Because I am an emotionally-triggered overeater. So the rest, i.e. what I chose to do: take a walk, ride the bike to work, eat what's in the bag, write a blog, etc. are the relevant bits... not the internal "opining" that triggered the feelings to begin with.
That said: I'm having "a week". After the overnight duty on Friday-Saturday, my sleep schedule disrupted, I've been not at the top of my game.
Monday, I left my day planner at home. Fortunately, while at work, I operate off the computer version.
Tuesday, I managed to make it to work missing my wallet. Fortunately, I had everything I needed packed in the lunch bag. And my coffee card was in the desk drawer.
YESTERDAY... I managed to get to work on my bicycle... MISSING THE BAG! (Yes, the "eat what's in the" bag.) Fortunately, there are healthy options, including fruit and nuts and a salad option at the cafeteria in the basement of the work building... AND I didn't forget the same thing twice, i.e. my wallet was with me.
This morning, I awoke to find e-mail from my older sis... from the hospital. She's had a health flare up that has landed her there! And Kelsey has had an up and down week, still on life support, stable, now entering the third week.
So... that's life. For today:
* Remember to TAKE the bag. Eat what's in it.
* Drink your water... is good for you.
* No bike today... check in with sister after the mandatory OT and maybe swing by hospital to see her!
* It will NOT kill you to take a rest day from the other exercise, but don't forget to go to recess... walking breaks at work do help keep you sane-r. Or less in-sane.
LIFE is precious, and fragile. Savor it. Recognize moments of happiness. Be as kind as you can... to yourself as well as to others. And Spark on!