Wednesday, June 26, 2013
For the last few hours, or for at least the last half of the day, I have been wanting to indulge in unhealthy foods. I have resisted all day. It is around 11pm. I am thinking of calling it a night (but I normally don't sleep until like 4am or later, I am an insomniac) so that will probably be unsuccessful.
We went grocery shopping a few days ago and my sister picked up corn dog nuggets and all sorts of other unhealthy things like hamburger helper. If looks could kill.... she'd have died that instant (lol). The next day she made some of the corn dogs. I controlled myself and only took one little nugget and walked away. Last night they made hamburger helper. They didn't make enough for everyone to have some, so I gave the last bowl of it to my son. But of course, he's 5 and didn't finish. He dragged that bowl around for hours. So as I'm at my desk, it's just sitting there on my desk where he randomly left it (he was watching t.v. there right before). The food is just staring at me. Calling me... I moved it to a position I'm not facing. Luckily about an hour later he came back and ate it.
Well right now.. There are still corn dog nuggets in the freezer.. and they are calling me.. Have been all day.. I've resisted so far... But I'm getting weaker. I tried drinking water. I am physically full. I even feel a little nausea.
So far my little mental pep talks have been keeping me away from the freezer. I'd go get water or a piece of fruit instead. But now I'm not actually hungry. I'm mentally hungry, not physically. (My meds significantly increase my appetite, I've run out of my meds that counteract those meds.) Because my appetite is med induced, the feeling is much stronger.
I think I'll try to play my computer game or something, but I may get bored and want to snack...
Does anyone have any tips as to how to deal with this? I've been doing so well with not giving in. I know myself. I know that if I give in, I will over do it. Right now, I do not have the self restraint to eat a correct portion size and I will ruin my binge free streak. Moderation is not an option for me right now.
Cereal for dinner was not a good idea.
So yeah, all suggestions are welcome. I am thinking of making a goals and motivators list. Reasons that I'm doing this in the first place.