Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Well - I've been staying on track with my calories and exercise. And the weight is coming off!
The numbers on the scale are dropping, slowly and steadily.
Even my jeans size is dropping.
All of that is very exciting. And yet. I look in the mirror and still see a huge fat girl.
I AM still overweight - by a lot. And some days it's hard to remember all the positive things that are happening to me since I started this journey of one day at a time.
I still see the round face, the stomach that hangs over my pants waist, elbows that are dimples instead of angles.
So I have to take a moment and think hard about the GOOD things that I've achieved, and will keep achieving:
I can go up a flight of steps without puffing and perspiring.
I have gone down one jeans size
I can walk past a plate of home baked brownies in the office and literally not care
I can put on sneakers and lace them up without asphyxiating myself
I have lost 30 pounds
I can walk a brisk half mile without panting or feeling a complaint from my knees
I sleep through the night and wake up rested
I can reach down and take off my socks while standing
I feel sharper and more in control
This is a short list, but I'm working to make it longer for myself. Some days I just feel like it's going to be this hard forever, and is it really making a difference? So I'm working on my list to remind myself of the many things (big and small) that I'm gaining back as I lose this weight!
It may be hard. It IS hard - it's making good choices and a commitment every day. But it is really worth it. I'm worth it.
I just need to remind myself sometimes.
Don't forget to remind yourself!