Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Just to let you know in advance, this WILL be a long one....
My weight loss journey has began & halted so many times, I've lost count a long time ago. Over the past few years, I've had some successes, then got off track, only to regain the pounds I've lost, or at least some. At one point, I even had a miscarriage that put me in a bad place, increasing my weight to my highest ever (245). Last summer was my big breakthrough, though. Seeing as I was a teacher, I got to choose how busy or lazy my summer was, so I spent most days sparking, walking/jogging & counting calories. I was down to the lowest I'd been in a long time (210). I even made major improvements on my jogging. School started & I began to become too busy, as not only do I spend 40hrs in the classroom, lesson plans & grading take up a lot of time, on top of helping a few hrs a week w/Boys & Girls Club + HS Debate & Forensics on the weekends. It's just so much easier to let things slip.
Anyways, in Nov. 2012, my husband & I made the decision to move from south central KS to Marion, Indiana, where we'd be living w/some of my immediate family at first, be closer to my extended family & closer to his family on the east coast. We made the move the beginning of June & it's definitely not been easy on me. I've been doing the Body by Vi shakes, which I think are yummy, make me not hungry, but the issue I've faced is that my parents are buying the food (which had a lot of temptations like cookies, sugary cereals, etc.) & no one to be accountable with. I've since then gained a few pounds. Ugh! It's been a stressful move as it is.
I KNOW how to be successful at losing weight, I've done it before & it wasn't hard once I got in the mindset. But the temptation that's there, has made it all the more difficult. I know I can't force others to change, but I'm REALLY, TRULY struggling. I've been working in the yard a lot & the other day my mom said you deserve a starbucks drink bc you've worked so hard. No...No, I don't. I deserve maybe a cold shower & relaxing chair w/some ice tea or water, not a sugary, unhealthy drink, but I gave in. My mom said, I need you to help us start eating better & we need to go walk, yet, when I try to get her to go, she can't/doesn't want to. Granted, those I live with have never had to deal with weight issues. I can sometimes get my siblings (who are 7yro & 9yro), but not always & I'm the one initiating it.
Welp, there's my venting & my grrrr'ing I needed to get out. Thanks for tolerating! :)