Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Fresh off a successful weigh in for BLC, I find myself awash in evil lady hormones, staring down the nose of a chocolate bar. As I tear through my quarry like a rabid animal, several thoughts spring to mind.
It is always easier to just not start than it is to stop eating chocolate.
Sugar does not make me feel good after I eat it -- only while I'm eating it. It is the most ephemeral of highs.
I'm 8 pounds away from my goal for the year. I have been losing weight steadily since January of this year. The sky's changed from an icy blue to a glorious sun touched hue. Everyone's casting off their winter shells and suddenly, it's all parties and treats and positive moods. The desire to throw caution to the wind and just say "yes" is at an all time high.
I think that even though I know better, I still have it in my head that once I reach my goal, I'll be able to say "yes" more often. Yes to that cocktail, yes to that chocolate bar. That you say "no" until you get there and then all the "yeses" can flood back into your life all at once.
This, of course, is how regain occurs.
I don't want to be a regainer; I want to be a maintainer. But I've made it this far by saying "no." So, how do I learn to say "yes" and still lose? I need to be able to say "yes" sometimes without it turning into a parade of yes. I'm still trying to find that balance.