So Frustrated: A Vent
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
So, I'm having a really bad day and I'm going to just put it all out there on this blog, and then turn around and try to put it back in perspective.
So today it's raining cats and dogs and the kids keep fight and needing intervention from me as I'm trying to get us all ready and packed up to go to the gym for a pilates class I wanted to try (need to get some strength training in this week bad!), But due to their bad behavior, perhaps my unpreparedness, and get the kids in and out of the car in the stupid rain, I was too late to go to the class. UGH. I did. however, have a good cardio day, but didn't have the self motivation to hit the weight room by myself.
I'm gaining weight. I am so hungry all the time this week. I suspect that it is related to my cycle but I want to snack all the time, and I am giving in to it often. I have been keeping my diet "whole foods" but not always completely paleo, and maybe just getting too many calories per day. I haven't been tracking. I need to start tracking. One more thing to add to my "to do" list.
I have a bridesmaid dress to fit into in 7 weeks, and at this rate it won't fit! How embarressing to tell the bride (on of my very best friends) that I'm an idiot an ordered my dress too small and now I can't be in her wedding....I CANNOT let that happen.
My weight has crept up about 3 pounds (167). And I do not feel like it is all muscle since I know my diet hasn't been perfect and my clothes are not fitting any looser than they were 2 weeks ago.
Also, despite spending way more time stretching after my workouts than the average gymgoer at my gym, my hamstrings and lower back are still SO tight. I've always be big on stretching every day, and it's totally messing with my mind that my flexibility is not improving at all. I'm stretching daily, drinking 1/2-1 gallon of water a day, and getting plenty of (healthy) fat in my diet. Any blog readers have any thoughts on what I could do to help loosen my muscles. I'd love to visit my chiropractor and get a massage, but I don't know when I'll have the time/childcare to go do it.
If anyone reading this has any advice, please please please give it to me. I'm just having "one of those days" and feeling kind of deperate. Do I continue with Paleo, but try to get the slip ups back under control (no fruit, honey, peanut butter - those have been my major slip ups), do I do another juice fast for a week? What do I do next? I'm on board for the long all with eating a clean, whole food diet. I know how good I feel keeping my diet this way. Just right now, I have this wedding to fit in a dress for and it's totally stressing me out.
OK. Now to put it all back in perspective. This is not the end of the world. It's a dress. Maybe it could be taken out a bit if needed. I doubt they could order me a larger size in time for the wedding, but maybe....or maybe my weight loss will pick up a bit and I'll fit the dress. I need to lose 1 dress size in 7 weeks - that sounds doable to me!
On the plus side, I have not totally screwed up and started eating junk food, I'm just over doing it on the "good stuff". Also my workouts have been very consistant 5-6x a week! That's good!
Also, my Grandma's colon biopsies came back cancer free! Praising God. We (and the doctors) were a little worried. My mom was awarded a scholarship from her school and my family is all healthy and well. Slow weight loss is not the end of the world.
In closing, I would like everyone to please pray for my spark friends LeVell and Judi (midnigher and heyitsjudi). Last weekend, during a storm a very large branch fell on Judi and she has been in the hospital with a breathing tube and head injuries. Not only has she been a very inspiring spark friend, she also has 2 little boys and a husband who love her and need her to get healthy fast. Please pray for healing and strength.