I know it's just a number but ...
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
So, I gained two pounds last night. And I know y'all are going to tell me that it's just water weight and I know you guys must be right because I have been sticking to 1650 calories the last few days and I did some great workouts and almost every meal I've had in the last few days was a salad (vegetable based), so really, it is not physically possible to gain fat unless I have some rare disease but seriously - I can't help it - it bothers me.
See, for some people gaining a pound or two is the inspiration they need. "I really have to watch out now." or "I need to do better!" but for me, seeing a higher weight on the scale is soul crushing, spirit destroying business. If I see a lower number on the scale my brain goes "Yes! You are awesome! WE ARE DOING THIS!", when I see a higher weight on the scale my brain says "Seriously, why am I even doing this? So much hard work for nothing.".
So, this is where I am at right now, trying to ignore the little nag that tells me to go get some ice cream.
Also my heel tendonitis has been terrible. I have a consultation with the physio therapist at my gym today and I hope he or she can give me some good tips, other than "Operation", "Advil" or "Taking a break from working out". Because these are all not viable options for me.