Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Yesterday was busy, and illustrated to me just how badly out of shape I am. I am determined to take this as slow as necessary, and if it means gaining health the way same way I did when I gave up cigarettes (cutting back a little bit at a time before changing major habits in ones and twos) then that's the way that I'm going to go about doing it.
For example, I hate Walmart. There are a number of reasons that I hate Walmart, but I swear that our local store cleans with something I'm allergic to. For years, all it's taken is setting foot inside those doors and I'm sweating and having trouble breathing. I thought for a while that it was panic attacks, but it only happens at stores in our local area -- not anywhere else that I go.
After a while, I took to staying in the car when my husband insisted on going to Walmart. I'll do grocery shopping anywhere but at Walmart, go in with him, help out, maybe get out of breath (since he's a slow shopper and I want to be in and out, in part because my weight makes it difficult to do basic things) but when it came to Walmart, I stayed in the car.
Yesterday I decided I was done with waiting around for him. I was going to get off my rear end and go into the store, help him with the shopping, and get some things that *I* wanted. After all, that little thing (in this case, the new Stephen King novel) was a reward to me for doing something, however simple, to take steps toward health.
I wound up so exhausted last night that I can't even understand what contributed more: the activity or the heat of the day. Muscles I had forgotten I had are starting to work in over drive, and I fell into bed wiped out at just after 11 p.m. last night (this is exceptionally early for me). But I feel good.
I'm taking vitamins. A women's multi (might need to change this to a standard multi since the iron is unnecessary and upsetting my system) and B-Complex in addition to extra Biotin, Fiber and Papaya Enzyme. I'm finally getting used to them, and they are definitely having an effect on my moods, if not my energy levels (yet). I can do this. I feel positive today.
Thanks for the support everybody!