Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Yesterday was one of my usual difficult days of my binge/restrict cycle, and I planned to write about how it went. I made it through without a binge, But lets just boil it down to my recap, (and then I'll share my Ah Ha moment.)
Since my last binge on Sunday, I have been "Purging" with excessive exercise and restriction of calories. This is leading to an empty hungry feeling, which lasts all day, and nothing satisfies, even though I'm eating healthy food. Of course I'm hungry. Duh! But this is part of my cycle. I end up hungry, and when that has gone on for a few days, I get desperate to fill myself up. I don't like that hunger hitting me as soon as I've finished eating. After a few days comes excessive eating. A binge. Then I'm full. That brings on the next part of the cycle, trying to overcompensate by excessive exercise and calorie restriction. I know I'm repeating myself here, it's just the nature of the cycle that I'm trying to record here.
Today I got my email notice that TINAJANE76 posted a blog. She's in maintenance and is always motivating and inspiring. She's lost 90 pounds or so and has kept it off for over a year.
So I read it. Here's where my Ah Ha moment came. She referred to the exact thing I go through of cycling, Binge/Restrict. Her insight was that she tweaked her calories to be a little higher so instead of having one big binge weekly, she stayed less deprived feeling and didn't feel the urge to binge! I like this. She also said in her interview for SparkRadio, playing now, that she realized that what she had been doing wasn't working anymore so she was willing to try something new. (her management with slightly higher calories) I find that I keep trying the same thing and not getting results. I've heard before quotes about this, that if you keep trying the same thing you'll keep getting the same results. Something to that effect. I was just thinking about this exact thing this morning on my walk. Thinking,"what can I change to make a difference?" This may make it slower when i want to lose a few pounds I may gain on vacation, etc, as she points out, but slow and steady wins the race!
I can see now something that I want to try! Thanks to TINAJANE76!
I've been praying for a way to break this crazy cycle!
I love the Lord, for he heard my voice; he heard my cry for mercy. Because he turned his ear to me, I will call on him as long as I live.