The last few days have been tough. Involving lots of tears at times both explained and unexplained.
Looking back, the last six months have been difficult. But I had not realised how difficult they were becoming until the last few days. I guess it was a case of managing, coping, and then not managing or coping.
Shelby, our cat of nearly 20 years was euthanased on Monday. In a couple of days time she will come home in a drawstring bag of ashes. 'Come home' is not my words, but the words of Lawnswood. I'm sad and upset, but pragmatic enough to know that a bag of ashes is going to be delivered representing our pet. But I guess they have to use words that they have carefully chosen that fit most people that are grieving for their pets.
I have already picked out an existing rose bush to scatter her ashes once spring turns around and or we have a flower on the rose bush.
We have decided to be pet free. I agree, so organising to donate various cat accoutrements to the Cat Haven. But it will be interesting to see how I go, as we have had mice, fish, and cats for as long as we have had a household together, which is going on 30 years.
Currently I am still checking each water bowl (which are not there) that they are full of clean water (whose turn was it?), that she has eaten her dinner (she has just pushed it to the other side of the bowl again), and whether her litter tray needed to be cleaned.
None of her bowls or trays are in place anymore, but I still look as I go through the house and garden. I wonder when I will stop looking?
Tracking food and fitness minutes the last couple of days has been a bit of a blur. Fortunately, I had already planned to follow 'The Spark Solution', and it was somewhat easier as we had trialled some of the recipes previously.
Meals have been somewhat easy as we have followed 'The Spark Solution' plan. However, I recognise that I have not been mindful.
Fitness minutes have not been following any plan, other than the week to week exercise that I usually do. So fortunately, I have or will get my bicycle rides to and from uni in, Pilates, and Tai Chi classes.
C'est la vie.
Life does not get in the way. This is life!