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Wednesday, June 26, 2013



The last few days have been tough. Involving lots of tears at times both explained and unexplained.

Looking back, the last six months have been difficult. But I had not realised how difficult they were becoming until the last few days. I guess it was a case of managing, coping, and then not managing or coping.

Shelby, our cat of nearly 20 years was euthanased on Monday. In a couple of days time she will come home in a drawstring bag of ashes. 'Come home' is not my words, but the words of Lawnswood. I'm sad and upset, but pragmatic enough to know that a bag of ashes is going to be delivered representing our pet. But I guess they have to use words that they have carefully chosen that fit most people that are grieving for their pets.

I have already picked out an existing rose bush to scatter her ashes once spring turns around and or we have a flower on the rose bush.

We have decided to be pet free. I agree, so organising to donate various cat accoutrements to the Cat Haven. But it will be interesting to see how I go, as we have had mice, fish, and cats for as long as we have had a household together, which is going on 30 years.

Currently I am still checking each water bowl (which are not there) that they are full of clean water (whose turn was it?), that she has eaten her dinner (she has just pushed it to the other side of the bowl again), and whether her litter tray needed to be cleaned.

None of her bowls or trays are in place anymore, but I still look as I go through the house and garden. I wonder when I will stop looking?

Tracking food and fitness minutes the last couple of days has been a bit of a blur. Fortunately, I had already planned to follow 'The Spark Solution', and it was somewhat easier as we had trialled some of the recipes previously.

Meals have been somewhat easy as we have followed 'The Spark Solution' plan. However, I recognise that I have not been mindful.

Fitness minutes have not been following any plan, other than the week to week exercise that I usually do. So fortunately, I have or will get my bicycle rides to and from uni in, Pilates, and Tai Chi classes.

C'est la vie.

Life does not get in the way. This is life!

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WENDYJM4 6/27/2013 6:41AM

    I feel for you on losing your much loved family pet. hugs

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HEALTHYHAPPYDEB 6/27/2013 2:35AM

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ARTJAC 6/26/2013 11:44PM

    I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL WE HAVE BEEN THERE FIVE TIMES WITH OUR CATS AND ONCE WITH OUR DOG WE STILL HAVE A CAT AND DOG WHO ARE BOTH 10 YEARS OLD BUT WHEN THEIR TIME COMES TO LEAVE US WE ARE GOING TO BE PET LESS YOU WILL GET BETTER AS TIME GOES ON BUT WILL STILL HAVE SOME WEEPY DAYS HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER SOON emoticon

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61INCHGAL 6/26/2013 6:41PM

    I am so sorry for your loss. I have been a pet person my entire life, and have had an assortment of cats, a dog, hamsters, mice, rats, rabbits, gerbils, etc and have loved them all dearly.

Glad you had so many years of companionship together.

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DIDMIS 6/26/2013 4:45PM

    Sorry about Shelby. 20 years is a long time.

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SUSIEPH1 6/26/2013 4:42PM

    I so feel for you. We have outlived 3 dogs and I cat in our lives and now Bobby is 8 years old ..
I did have a lovely cat that was a stray and adopted us ..
It broke our hearts to have to put her down because of her illness.

I know your lovely Sheby will be grateful to be out of pain, and I am sure she will love being under her favorite rose bush ..
Think of her at Rainbow bridge playing with all the other Cats emoticon and Dogs
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_VALEO_ 6/26/2013 11:03AM

    I thought of you the last few days, and I can imagine what you've been through with Shelby's loss.

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DESERTJULZ 6/26/2013 10:00AM

    Oh, I'm so sorry. It always hurts to lose a beloved pet. My little cat is nearing age 20 and dealing with several issues... I know it won't be long.

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PEZCATHY 6/26/2013 9:37AM

    I am so sorry for your loss. It is just as hard to lose a beloved pet as it is a human loved one. I understand your grief and pain. When I had to put my Bandit to sleep, I said I would never get another dog. I would come home from work, park the car in the garage, and sit there and cry because I couldn't get out of the car knowing that he wouldn't be there to meet me. After a couple of months, I kept thinking about all of the homeless animals, I had to fill that void in my heart, and I broke down and went to the shelter and got sweet little Max, who was only with me for four years because of medical issues. Now I've had Toby for 3 years, and just got Tessa as a playmate for him. There are so many sweet, loving animals desperately needing homes that are in shelters all over.

Will keep you in my prayers for strength and healing.

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LORI3679 6/26/2013 9:36AM

    I'm so sorry about your cat. We lost our cat on 4/20/13 that we had for 16 years, so I understand what you are going through. I wanted to be pet free as well, but my husband and two kids really wanted another cat. We got our new cat (she's 2 like our previous cat was when we got her) at a local shelter on 5/28/13.

It will take a while to get used to not having a pet around. I had just started getting to where I wasn't looking for her and then we got our new one.

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