Wednesday, June 26, 2013
I think I need some advice here-
Getting Married in 9 days- and everything seems to set me over the top. I feel like I have 100000 things to do- in reality it may only be 15. My fiance' doesnt understand at all, he hasnt made one phone call, etc for the wedding- I have put my heart and soul and time into this and I am about to break. Now its not that Brian hasnt offered- he has, but he would get to it when he decides to- Now if I saw we need to call the caterer today that doesnt mean next week so I just do it myself. His one real job was booking the Hotel room for us- Sunday he asks did you get a room because I forgot- I have had one booked since March!
And honestly its just the way he is- I know that, but its like you need me to tell you in a list that the dishes need to be done- umm hello they are all over the counter (not all dirty, some were our new things) or the Grass is 3 inches long please MOW IT NOW! I don't have time to create a to do list for you everyday while getting all my stuff done. Dont worry I am still taking an hr after work to Walk- it is my only heaven now- I have been praying while I walk and relaxing before I start the night.
Ok so thats #1, next is that HIS FAMILY is staying at my house they are arriving Next Tuesday- Wedding is Friday- Staying thru Sunday! So we have to get the whole house picked up/cleaned. Does anyone else think it is completly wrong to stay with the Bride? Its his parents, brother, sister-in-law and 3 kids. Am I completly over reacting? Brian and I have fought about it for over a year and I have basically given up none of them think its a big deal and frankly its not worth the fight- but now its like umm I have company coming in How many Days? My list is How long? and is it to much for Brian to tell me he appreciates what I am doing for his family? Ohh and he thinks our house isnt going to be the "Hang out" for the rest of his family- all from out of town too.. Hahah Yeah rightt!
and 3rd- His poor poor grandmad was just diagnosed with pancreatic cancer last week. Its a very aggressive cancer- and she is 90 God Bless that woman! She is the sweetest thing ever and I love her. They just got a release from the Doctor yesterday that they can make the drive from Montana to Iowa for the wedding. I am so happy for Brian and that his grandma will be here- but to have my finace' crying is not normal behavior for me. When he got off the phone and told me the news i said so why were you crying- he said Happy Tears.. I have never in 7 years seen him cry happy tears. This will be our last time we see here probably- and I am so happy she is making it, but it adds such a huge new level of emotion to next week (crying just thinking about it)
I need some relaxation techniques!!!