Wednesday, June 26, 2013
I wish I were talking about that smooth group from the past, but no... my very present friend. Temptation got the better of me last night. it was 93 degrees most of the day yesterday, and I was hot, sweaty, cranky, and working outside. I met my mom and my kiddo for dinner, I prefaced this visit with the fact that I was looking forward to cereal, but I would sit with them while they ate. Yesterday would have been day 4 of my juice fast, but I blew it. I had 3 pieces of pizza and a bunch of cool ranch Doritos. I recognize that this juice thing is probably not something I can keep up long term, but I need to lose weight.
I notice my body more now lately. I huff and puff to get off the couch, any amount of stairs or walking exhausts me. I can cross my legs at all anymore. I don't fit into restaurant benches anymore, so my fat falls onto the table when I sit at one. My arms are super droopy now, my rings all feel small... My skivvies are too small so i can hear the seams stretch when i get dressed or go potty. I cant buy shoes like cowboy boots because my feet and calves wont fit. My face constantly has a double chin now, and my facial expressions are misunderstood - I am assuming due to the fact that my face muscles are so far below the layer of fat on my face...
I am trying not to be discouraged... but I am not succeeding. But I am also, not giving up!!!!