Wednesday, June 26, 2013
So I am back in Wales after a week at home in England with my Mum. Was lovely to see her but really wish we didn't live so far apart. I really miss her but know I have to live my own life, can't stay home forever. She's coming up to visit soon though, looking forward to that as it will be my graduation too.
Had a nice surprise when I went home, went shopping with Mum for some new jeans (a task that is normally horrific) and was very pleased to find I have gone down a size :) The scales may be stubbornly staying put but it appears my shape is changing and becoming more toned, little positive changes seem to be working.
I continue to struggle with my mood. My depression seems to be getting the better of me at the moment but I'm not going to let in win overall. Just wish I could feel more motivated and want to do things, I feel like I want to sleep all the time at the moment. So frustrating, I've fallen behind on y running programme too but today is a new day and the only way from here is up!!
On the positive, I went horse riding last night and had a show jumping lesson with Albert. It went so well, jumped a spread and a bounce fence, amazed it went so well, been a long time coming but starting to have a fragile confidence that I can do it. MY horses really are my best friends, they make everything better.
Never surrender, Never give up!