Wednesday, June 26, 2013
When I first joined spark I was slow learning how to use the tracking tools.(Who am I kidding? I'm still slow!) It frustrated me because I could not quickly track my food. The kids are also computer hogs and I would end up tracking on my iphone. I'm sure normal people do it easily but it took me forever! So, I ended up getting discouraged and I just tracked when I felt the urge but made conscious choices to eat smaller food portions. I was exited to see a 7lb loss very early. I've been 200 lbs for 6 years and recently crept up to 209. I had tried many "diets" but honestly could never do more than a day, so the 7lb loss made me super happy! I decided this was going to be easy!! So I continued on my way, on and off tracking and low and behold when I stepped on the scale I had gained 5 pounds. I got on and off and on and off just to make sure. I was spitting mad!
I realized then, that I needed to think about my eating every day. I can't just put it in the back of my mind right now. I thought because I lost so easily, it seemed to me, that I could just wing it. Maybe when I'm used to eating what my body needs and and not 4x that much, I will be able to relax a bit. I don't know. Maybe some of you are in that "place" or maybe that place doesn't exist for everyone. So I decided to do what some SP folks suggests and get rid of certain trigger foods. I started measuring portions, making sure I had a fruit for dessert when I'm craving sweets and started to get more walking in and you know what? I lost the 5lbs and 7oz. I had to include the ounces Lol.
I remember asking someone, who had obviously lost a lot of weight, how they did it and they said," eat less and exercise." I felt like they were making fun of me. Now I understand it's true. It's just not EASY! At least not for me. Tonight when everyone was having smores I had watermelon. It was hard but it would have really put me over calories for the day and I really like knowing that the scale is moving down.
I know I can't overcome my mental battles every time. Recently I listened to a sparkradio broadcast where Lilly and Karen were encouraging us to ask ourselves if we really want to eat something or if it's only emotional. They followed that up with asking if we really want that taste of food as much as we want to be thin. Do you really want to eat that? They asked. And later in the day when I was tempted I stopped and pondered their questions. I mean, I really stopped and thought good and hard about it and I answered with, "YES I DO!!!" And I lost the battle.
But what I know now is that it's a lifestyle. Not an all or nothing contest I only have one chance at. I'm learning every day and for someone who's new to limiting food and exercising, I'm pretty proud of myself!! I am soooo glad I found SP and have the great spark friends that I do because I know I could not do it without them. I have read sooo many wonderful blogs and have had questions answeres and most of all been encouraged that I can really do this!!
Thanks Spark Friends!