Tuesday, June 25, 2013
So, I have spent all of college caring about my weight, nutrition, and fitness level on and off. I have come to sparkpeople and left it be for months at a time. I have made great strides only to undo them. I am done with the negativity! and self-doubt that is inside of me, and ready to stop giving up! Even now, I hear myself saying "maybe" instead of "DEFINITELY!
I'm not MAYBE going to start taking care of myself. I'm DEFINITELY going to start taking care of myself!!
I find myself, a college graduate in search of a job teaching math. Currently, I'm working as a receptionist, sitting at a desk all day long. I have never been this sedentary and I guess starting this job makes caring about my body all the more urgent! I have to balance out the fact that I am bound to a cubicle all day with what I eat and what I do outside of work.
I am not quite sure how.
In addition, I have never felt very much support and am always shy to admit that I care a lot more about all of this than I let on. In other news, I am getting married. More than just looking good in the white gown, I really want to start off this new chapter of my life with a better healthier lifestyle. One that I can proudly strive to achieve alongside my amazing fiancee.
I want something that sticks; something that not only changes my appearance, but who I am.
I am adventurous. I love people. I am passionate about water sports of all kinds. I want to be able to effectively serve God with my whole life.
Unfortunately, I like control. I like that I can eat whatever I want and I have trouble discriminating between good and bad foods and portions. I like choosing NOT to do the things I should sometimes. I don't like things to be too challenging for me physically. These are the things I most need to overcome. So far, I am two days into tracking my foods. Today is the day I reset my goals for, hopefully, the last time. I have not really connected with a real sense of community here at Sparkpeople, but I think that time is about due. Working alongside people is the best way I have found to learn and grow.
Let it begin.