Everything is Complicated
Tuesday, June 25, 2013
I've been gone for a while. End of school, Netherlands vacation, back home in Chicago, friends, a new person of interest in my life, and my knee issues have all conspired against me. The PT has been telling me for months now that if I want my knee to get better, I really have to STOP WALKING ON IT!!!! Well, that's hard to do on vacation, although I did try to ice it and be sensible about how far I was walking. So now I am home, and of course I have a steady stream of visitors, which means more walking. So I am kind of in limbo. It's not getting worse, but it's not really getting better. And after being so sedentary for the last month of school, it feels really good to move.
And there is this guy. Which has happened very quickly and which makes me feel both amazing and totally panicked. And he feels the same way. I am trying to just enjoy it, but I go back to Africa in six weeks, and I am already dreading the thought of saying goodbye.
So Spark has been on the back burner. I don't have my scale here, so I am waiting to go to the doctor in a few weeks and get his official number. I was really looking forward to spending the summer walking and working out, but my knee is still in charge and that isn't going to happen. I am recommitted to tracking though. I feel like I have been self-indulgent, and I need to get some control in my life again.