Tuesday, June 25, 2013
My weight loss on IP has been a little confusing. I started this diet on June 14th 2013, so it has been about two weeks. I messed up the first 4 days of the diet because I ate two restricted foods each day until my first clinic check in. The funny thing is, that on my home scale, i was losing a pound or two a day. At the 4 day clinic check in, i didn't lose anything according to their scale. A week later (today), the clinic scale said I lost 1 pound. According to my home scale I lost a total of (162-156) 6 pounds. I dont know which scale to trust. A part of me tells me my scale is better because it is my weight first thing in the morning. The clinic appointment is at 2:40pm, which is after i have had breakfast and lunch and lots of water. So I can't tell.
anyway, i am jealous of the fact that everyone on IP i read is losing a ton of weight and here i am, miss fatty, sitting here cheering myself on when there arent any real results. I wonder if this diet is for me. I have been sticking to it after my mistake over a week ago, i should have lost more. my coach says i am the only person she has met that isnt losing weight on this diet as fast as her other clients. its like seriously? FML!
I have been struggling with my weight ever since i was a kid. I remember my first weight loss pills when i was in middle school, highschool, college. I worked out like crazy. I tried to eat well but always had an erratic food schedule. Sometimes I ate, sometimes I didnt have time to (I'm in college right now).. so frustrating. Honestly. I am sick and tired of being fat. Everyone tells me, Meesh, accept yourself and be happy. The thing is, i can't accept myself the way i am. Having Zoha (my now 4-year-old daughter) messed up my body SO much. There are mothers who get back to their pre-baby weight after just a year or two and here i am, still struggling. It is just so embarrassing.
I am going to stick with this, because this HAS to be my last diet. It just has to. I am unwilling to go on and try new things. I am sick and tired of it. If this diet doesn't work. I'm getting liposuction. I've had it.
lets see how week 3 check in goes. I'll keep you all posted.
Thanks for hearing me out. I really needed to vent!!!