Tuesday, June 25, 2013
I will do another blog later with canoe trip details. It was the worst of times and the it was the best of times. Very proud of myself and I have pictures to post when we are organized... so it will be here soon but not today.
No, today is about finding a different focus.
For today I am looking at my emotional eating. I have never wanted to deal with it before. I think I must be "ready" today because I am willing to start a streak with "NO cookies, NO cake, No chocolate and No chips" today. Always for me it has been about adding in more veggies and exercise. Today though I am seeing these foods clearly. I deny all the time that I eat them because they are not part of my food plan at all. They sneak in. I'll be trying to really look at my emotional triggers during the streak too.
1. Emotional eating. Good or bad stresses in my house and I find myself reaching for carbs. eg. DD finally found a place to live next fall. The house is getting decluttered from our canoe trip but there is still smoky smelly gear everywhere. The pool room has the tents up in it so they can dry out so it is accumulating camping smells. My bedroom is temporarily storing extra things a DD has not been able to sort through yet. A DD has found some counseling help. .... all are niggling away at my eating brain. Tomorrow is a DD's birthday and I have planned to make a cheesecake which is a trigger food for me.
2. Night snacking. I am getting the munchies at night while watching TV. We get periods of time when we are waiting for a download and the kettle goes on... which is fine... but I find I want somethign to crunch/chew on.
1. Keep identifying my triggers. Just writing out some of those examples of things that will trigger emotional eating was good. Making a list - I can try that in my journal.
2. Night eating. First I could say "I won't have it in the house" which is a good thing for foods that I might not portion out. I can prepare an evening snack like I used to. I can do a sugar check to make sure it is not a real hunger/blood sugar issue, ie. reality check.
100% of the blocks between me and smaller healthy me seem to be food issues. I am eating so much healthier than I used to. Our canoe trip was awesome for foods well spaced out and well balanced. Yesterday I had salad based meals for lunch and dinner. I have brought so many more high fiber, protein and veggie recipes into my repertoir of choices to eat and I tend to shop the outside of the grocerie store now almost all the time. I eat far less of foods I make for my B&B guests (bedtime snack cookies or bars, pastries for breakfast) - usually not touching them at all. So it is all progress. I thnk I am really ready to focus on the emotional eating and night snacking. Wow!
To that end, I am going to go for a streak starting today. No cake or cookies or chocolate or chips. That felt very good even writing it. Yes... DD's birthday is tomorrow but what better time to start? I do not have to have any of the cake. It is so much easier if I have none. I can still have a wonderful dinner. Yes... I have cookies to bake for guests who are here 4 nights starting Thursday... but I don't need them. Not a single one. Yes.... I do sometimes indulge in chocolate but for this streak I won't. Yes, we do enjoy tortilla chips with meals sometimes but I just won't plan any meals with them for this streak as they are too tempting when watching TV. I could make a plan for night snacking... but I think I will just start with this. No emotional eating. No cake or cookies or chocolate or chips.
I feel empowered!