Tuesday, June 25, 2013
I couldnít resist todayóspecially with the shiny new scalesóand weighed myself. It was daft to think so, but Iíd still been doubting the efficacy of the eating plan. We are all so brain washed into thinking ďhey, stop stuffing bacon into the skin of that chicken, in fact take the skin OFF the chicken because no one can eat fat like this and lose weight!Ē Even up to today I believed-REALLY believed this. I was sticking to the plan while still disbelieving that it works, and I canít tell you how great it is to be proved wrong and all the (considerable) research (you know me and loving research) Iíve done on Low Carb eating was actually telling it like it is.
It shows just how dark a place my brain had got to where I had not only doubted the measurements I took recently but also these Weight Watchers scales that had told me a couple of days ago that Iíd lost four pounds.
This is making a short story very long, but I expected nothing, therefore, when I stepped on the scales. In fact I really really thought that the weights it had shown before were simply nonsense, because I considered that I must be over the maximum weight and it was therefore pumping out gobbledegook. However itís been my own brain that was pumping out gobbledegook and I think that seeing that Iíve lost THREE POUNDS in two days, (7 pounds since 22nd June) has finally convinced me that Iím not imagining it, there IS hope and I CAN do this.
I didnít/donít think that my weight has led directly to my depression. Iíve been overweight before, and fat->obsese->morbidly obese in stages for 13 years so Iím not saying itís the only cause. But I do think that losing the weight will help to lift the depression.
Every single thing else thatís wrong with me (and itís quite a list) is due to one simple thing. Me putting too much of the wrong thing into my gob. It seems utterly suicidal to me that someone would allow themself to get into this position (after all, Iím very much at risk of keeling over at any time) JUST BECAUSE I eat too much. So Iím more than sure that with each pound that comes off, things will improve a little tiny bit each day.
after allóas my great Ancestor said often:-
ďEvery day in every way, Iím getting better and better.Ē Ė Frank Spencer
Breakfast: hash as normal. Lunch: trout and a small rump steak. Dinner grill steaks and wilted greens, greek yoghurt and berries, quarter cucumber for a snack Ė 30 carbs in total