Tuesday, June 25, 2013
That picture above is me and my daughter Bordeaux swimming in a pool in Malta.
My family and I just came back from a work-week long vacation. During that vacation, I learned there were some things I needed to do for myself. One was talk to someone about my anger issues and another was to make time for myself to do what it is I'd like to do.
It has come to my attention that many of my anger issues stem from not being able to discover myself sooner because I was living a life others had desired for me. So imagine the thought of wanting to raise a child differently and discovering that you want her to start deciding and choosing for herself in life so she can learn about herself better and earlier. That's where the angry thoughts came in and what saddened me most was that they came in on my vacation!! But it was needed as it was the time I had to sit and think and relax.
So if anything, one thing I'd like to take away from my vacation is to have some alone time. Time to myself for the things I solely would like to do. Time where I don't feel like I need my family and that my family will be ok without me. I have to realize because I'm a work in progress, that it may be a little while before I'm able to find that time consistently but I need to be in search of that time. I need to be a little selfish in my life and that starts with me having time for me to do what I like to do.
So over the next few blogs, I'll be focusing on myself and what I'm doing to make me a better me. I've got to do this because it's my life on the line if I don't - literally and figuratively. And I think I'm worth it. Correction: I KNOW I'M WORTH IT!