Tuesday, June 25, 2013
Driving with my Dad today to see a neurosurgeon about my cervical spine issues. The best outcome? Either that weight loss will significantly decrease the severity of my migraine headaches and neck pain or; 2nd Best: that after a certain amount of weight loss, that he would be able to operate and repair the damage done, which hopefully would decrease the severity of my migraine headaches and cervical spine pain. Are these unrealistic expectations? Perhaps. But I need to hope for some light at the end of the long, dark tunnel of despair that I am currently trapped in. Self pity? I don't feel sorry for myself and certainly would not want anyone else getting that impression from reading this. I have seen the trials and tribulations that many of my SparkFriends have gone through and continue to go through. I merely submit this as an update. One of my primary motivations of losing weight is to get some substantial relief from my pain, hopefully to a point where it is manageable. Final note: I was getting a head shave with my Dad yesterday (we both are going for the cueball approach-he goes every week and I go every 2nd or 3rd week) and was conversing with my barber when the topic invariably turned to my "condition." He said something that kind of hit me funny-that once I lost the weight that-he put it this way "everyone needs to accept a certain level of pain that you have to grow accustomed to, as a part of the aging process everyone goes through." My Dad was quick with the pollyanna "That's right." Boy, I dunno why but that p---ed me off. (Gee, George, duh, oh, why did you get angry with me? I'm not angry Lenny. Look at the birds, Lenny look at the pretty little birds.") Anyways, probably me being oversensitive. But the inference seemed to be: 1) that the weight that I carry is the primary cause of my cervical spine issues and migraines; 2) that both of those would disappear once I lost enough weight and 3) that any pain after that I would need to get used to, i.e., translate that to "grin and bear it, fatboy!" Like I said, I am pretty mad over this. It's not the first time I've heard this. Once it was suggested that I use a feeding tube as a method of weight loss, followed by my Dad saying "what do you have to lose?" REALLY??!!?? Hmmm, I wonder why this is not a recommended way of losing weight, that it is used only by people who can not eat at all or some Hollywood nit-wit trying to lose weight for a film shoot? Hmmm??? I wonder why.