Monday, June 24, 2013
So I've been trying to change little by little. Last week I went on a 45 minute walk with Gavin one night and did 30 day shred the next night. Over the weekend I went on another 45 minute walk and did not drink any pop or get coffee for the drive to and from KC. I bought some watermelon that I need to cut up tomorrow. I have a freezer full of chicken, fish, veggies and fruit that I need to use to make healthy dinners.
Another trick I just thought of: pasta as sides, not entrees. I love pasta. Like loooooove pasta. I've gone weeks eating spaghetti for every meal and never gotten sick of it and my biggest comfort food craving is a good helping of mac 'n cheese. But pasta is a carb just like rice or potatoes and we don't eat rice in some sauce or mashed potatoes for dinner, we eat it as a side with some sort of meat. I should do the same with pasta so I don't feel like I can't have it, but just make some smaller portion of it as a side with whatever I'm eating.
I'm reading the Spark book because I need a mental adjustment otherwise this weight battle will never end with me. I need to stop thinking about exercise and eating healthy as punishment for not be "one of the lucky ones." I've always had a little bit of angst towards my little sister because even though we're in the same family she's always been a size 2 and complains about getting fat when she gets over 120. In high school we both got into cross country, but she was naturally better at running carrying around 30 pounds less on our 5'3" frames. I joined cross country to lose weight and after training for half marathon, I quit because I still weighed the same and got bored running for 2 hours a day if I still couldn't fit into a size 6. My little sister continues to run. Typically 30-60 minutes a day every week, all year round because she likes it and doesn't view it as a means to an end. Guess what? She's never really gained more than 5 pounds, while I've gain 30, lost 25, gain 15, lost 10, gain 15, gained another 22, lost 18 and gained 15.
An older lady in my work office is skinny as twig. I learned yesterday, she does some kind of work-out every night after work and is part of a running club who have now become her friends. It's these cemented, daily habits that keep the weight off for good. Not restricting carbs and banning sugar to live a depressed life. Yes, these things are bad for you but come 'on only body-builders and people who's careers require them to have no fat can maintain the motivation to live that lifestyle. Even if I could, I don't want that. I want to live and indulge without being afraid of the scale every morning.
I have got to make a permanent, forever-in-my-daily-routine habit of doing something physical for at least 30 minutes a day. Walk, run, bike, do a video, play basketball, tennis, or throw a baseball around with my boyfriend and son. As much I have would love to lose this weight fast because of the weddings coming up and how much I hate how the clothes I have fit me right now, I need to do this the right way and give myself a fighting chance at permanent success.
Goals for this work week:
- add a serving of fruit to every meal
- choose water over milk, limit milk to 3 glasses per day (i drink 1/3-1/2 gallon a day)
- go on 2 30-60 minute walks
- 30ds 3x
And the biggest goal of all:
~~~~~Don't procrastinate! finish your homework and your final project! They are the last assignments you will ever have!!~~~~~~~~
I finish my last class I need for graduation on Friday. I need to focus!