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2 years tomorrow

Monday, June 24, 2013

Tomorrow will be two years since my mom passed away. I think it hurts just as much as the day it happened. I know I miss and love her just as much. So I guess that's why it hurts just as bad. I feel like I'm all alone in this and I'm just dragging everyone down around me if I talk about it.

My dad has remarried and I know that he has moved on I just thought he would still be a little sad from time to time. But according to his new wife he was always pinning away for her through the whole time they had been apart. Which maybe she is right. Maybe that's why it didn't take him anytime at all to go on with his life. After watching the Notebook I realized maybe my parents didn't have that kind of love. I always thought they did. Maybe I'm just deluding myself into thinking that kind of love is real.

I'm just having a bad moment and I know it will pass. If it hurts this much today what's tomorrow going to be like?

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
JESSALOU 6/26/2013 2:00PM

    It is so hard losing a parent! No one can ever replace them, in any form or fashion. I know i feel your pain, I miss my dad ever day and its been years now and it still from time to time feels like a freshly open wound. What i would give just to pick up the phone and be able to call him. And I think that kind of love is real. i would not say you are delusional or anything like that. its just hard to find that love. And we all know there are different kinds of love, maybe he just has to mask it by having another woman,maybe it helps kill his pain, Men are so different from women. My mom has remarried since my father passed she admits she loves him, but it is no way the say that she felt with my father. Hugs, thoughts and prayers ! XOXOXOXO

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AMBER281 6/25/2013 9:29PM

Just know your not alone. While we may not all know exactly how you feel we are good listeners and can provide a shoulder to cry on when needed.

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    Thinking of you today and sending you lots of love.

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STARLIGHT615 6/25/2013 7:06PM

    I am so sorry your having a rough time sweetie!! just focus on you and your mom!! emoticon

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SGTSUNNY 6/25/2013 6:46PM

    Hugs, I know your love for your mom will never fade, I just hope the hurt will fade with time. Remember the good times, it will help. And remember you have so many friends here, please do not forget we love ya! and feel free to ask for help or someone to talk to.

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PRETTYPITHY 6/25/2013 6:46PM

    Believe it or not, I know how you feel, in a way. When my dad passed away, my parents were divorced and my mother and sister hadn't spoken to him in years. Because I was the only one close to him, I felt like I was the only one mourning. And mourning alone is a very painful thing. It will take some time but I wish you peace and healing. emoticon

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FIERCEONE4PEACE 6/25/2013 12:12PM

    uge huge hugs honey. It is awful what you are going through. Try not to focus on what your dad is doing..focus on the love you and your momma had. Great big hugs and love

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JENNCRRT 6/25/2013 4:20AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon It's so hard losing a parent. I'm sorry:(

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BROOKE008 6/24/2013 9:52PM

    emoticon The love you have for your Mom and the memories you have of her will keep her close in your heart even if she may not be here physically. I'm so sorry that you are experiencing such sadness! If you ever need an ear, my inbox is always open!

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-ICANDOIT- 6/24/2013 9:29PM

    I am so sorry for the pain and sadness you are feeling. I can ony imagine the empty space that is left without your mom here to fill it. But remember that love is a funny kind of thing....nobody has "The Notebook" love everyday...but hopefully in their marriage, they got that feeling sometimes and they worked for a lifetime at building a history together. There is no denying they had a wonderful history that included a beautiful family. And if you believed they had that love, they probably really did. Nothing can take that away.

I hope you find comfort in the happy memories you have and in knowing how very proud you are making your Mom each and every day! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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