Monday, June 24, 2013
Feeling MUCH better today that yesterday morning. Thank you sooo much to all of those who commented on my blog post from yesterday. You are all so right. While I gained weight, I know how to be healthy again and I'm glad that I didn't let myself gain too much. It could always be worse! And given everything- we are allowed to fall down from time to time. Perfect isn't attainable. The important thing is we work to better ourselves :)
Yesterday I went out for a leisurely walk, about 4 miles give or take. It was beautiful and warm out and I celebrated with a green smoothie and a walk. I drank a LOT of tea and ate healthy and I decided to go back to calorie counting.
Due to my sketchy eating history, I don't want to count calories. I want to intuitive eat. I achieved intuitive eating with weight loss for a couple weeks before and I loved the freedom it brought, but then I began the binge, and now my body doesn't have those cues anymore. I don't feel hungry; I don't feel satisfied; I don't even know if I feel full. So often if I try to not think about calories I either way over do it and can't control myself or I way under do it- so the calorie counting now is about making sure I eat a right amount. I'm aiming for 1400-1700 calories a day, maybe 1500-1800 I'm not sure. This is slightly higher than what SP recommends for me, but, while I know I might not "reach my goal" in the "selected time frame," I think it is more important for me to not get overwhelmed if I eat a little bit "too much" and to start listening to my body again, so if I legitimately feel hungry, I want to have peace of mind it is OK to eat, even if that means going over my SP range.
No guilt in eating, that's my goal.
Anyway, today I woke up early and made a green smoothie to share with a friend. Almond milk, spinach, frozen peach/mango/banana, vanilla protein, and a bit of coconut (not too much or I'd get sick!). I gave her half of the mix, and then put the remaining in the fridge while I went back to bed :P I was tired, okay? When I woke again, I blended the rest of my smoothie with a ton of ice (how I prefer it) and I got- FIVE CUPS of smoothie for... 320ish calories? I was in heaven. It was so full of goodness...
Then I finished up a workout plan which I might post for you guys to see :) I'm focusing mostly on weight training and lifting! And I'm going to start doing 15 min HIITs two to three times a week and then just 30 min other cardio (more if I feel like it but I'm not focusing on that, you know?). I want to be strong more than anything.
So I did my upper body lifting routine today! Don't laugh; I use 10 lb dumbbells and I'm only at 35 lb barbell but- I can bench that 16 times without a spotter- I refuse to try to go almost to failure or max without one because of the dangers associated, and I would go up another 5 lbs at least, but currently the only higher weight setting I can try is... 55 lbs. Going up 20 is a bit much to do on your own! I have 30 min of "other" cardio still to do (whatever cardio I want!) but I'm unsure what I want to do :P I might see if the family friend who is living with us right now will play Just Dance with me :) I got some pretty bad blisters yesterday and I don't think I can run, and I want my workouts to be fun :)