Monday, June 24, 2013
I've decided that I don't want to use the gym this summer. It will cost $65.00 and sure, I use the cardio equipment and the weights, but I can use my own bike, and go for walks and jog on my own. I can do body weight exercises and watch youtube videos and stuff here at home. I had to really think about it, and I decided that I can do it without the gym. There are plenty of people who are successful and never set foot in a gym. I've lost weight before without a gym.
I got my grades back. I earned three A's and one A-. that makes me feel good. I still haven't gotten a job, but I'm not too worried about it. I took a bike ride today and I had so much fun! The only thing that's been kind of bothering me lately is the fact that the weather hasn't been that great. It's been raining on and off for the last 3 weeks or so. It's cloudy right now, and has been drizzling. That kind of makes things depressing.
I've been really focusing on mindful eating. I think getting that under control is important to getting healthy. I have been relying too much on exercising and sure, that's awesome, but if I really want to fix this, I'm going to have to fix it in the kitchen.
I don't have a lot of plans this summer. I know some day, I'll at least be able to go on a decent vacation for the summer, but unfortunately, for now, I'm a student on a student's budget...It's kind of depressing to see everyone around me going on vacations whether its to Europe, a road trip to California, or Washington...It makes me angry to read people complaining on facebook about other people's kids making too much noise while on a cruise...I'm over here like "Uh..I've never even been on a commercial airline let alone a cruise." Obviously, the plane itself isn't the big deal-quite the rip off from what I've heard. It's the fact that I've never had an opportunity to go anywhere far enough that required travel by plane.
I feel depressed because of this sometimes. I feel like my life is going to be boring and I'll never get to do anything fun. I feel like I'll always be poor, and that things will always be this way. I'll be overweight, poor, and bored.
I know that I have many good things going on in my life and for those things, I am grateful. It's just frustrating sometimes. Heck, I don't even have a car.
Well, I'm sorry for this semi-depressing rant. I know that TOM is coming up,and I guess my mood is reflecting that. I know deep down that things will get better. I just have to keep working for it. Like they say : Everything happens for a reason....