For those who have been with me since the start you'll remember when I got into my relationship . I was really happy and I even took a picture of my outfit on date night .
It became official and as of June 23 ,2014 it came to a end. 19 months of my life is gone and i cant get back . I can change my future and continue to focus on my life/health.
Before I got into this relationship I had made changes for the better , working out on lunch breaks ,before work ,after work on my days off . meal prep . Logging into Spark..
Things changed and as I looked back most was not for the better.
I learned a lot about my self and I am sure over time as I reflect more about my relationship and self I will see more things clearly .
What I do know now is that you must never change for somebody else , if you make any changes you must do it for you . Better your self for your own happiness.
To find somebody who accepts you for you , and all your little weird habits . Having somebody pick on your every move , is a warning sign and RUN ,dont look back .
Ive had my self worth torn down and shredded to pieces and I need to rebuild my self from the inside out .
I do plan on going to CNA school for my self , its something that will benefit me and I do miss working with the elderly because they have so much knowledge.
I lost a lot of time and money that was invested in this relationship and though some may say why didnt you collect all the things you bought .. I didnt want to get arrested
. I had so much anger in me I really didnt trust my self.
Material things can be replaced , my freedom is priceless and more importantly he can keep all the things I ever bought . He can have fun cleaning out all the things I got him because IT IS A LOT !
I bought so many things its crazy like I dont have a computer but i got him one ! Currently using my neighbors computer to write this but trust me when I say I will get one ! Next month I am going to get my laptop, been saving and its time .
I am heart broken , 19 months is a long time .. for me anyways , a lot of emotions... memories..
This morning was hard to get out of bed , I had to force my self . Bless Instagram for the motivation to get out , If you have it add me xsencix96789
also i really wanted a 6 packbag but the backorder was insane so i orded a iso bag which is just the same thing . it should be here tomorrow .
so meal prep will be going on , workouts as well .
more blogs to come , back on track .
also if youre in hawaii i am wanting to do the Run or Dye run in Nov and also the Great Aloha Run in 2014 .
If anybody is planning on doing this let me join you lol or if you arnt planning on doing this , LETS DO IT !
My goal was always to do a 5k , like I have yet to fill that .. I want too.
there are so many things I have waned to do that being in my relationship held me back because of the lack of support and motivation.. oh ! yeah dont be with somebody who isnt motivated to do anything after work , like we all have our moments but when it affects your health , RUN AWAY.
My next relationship , I want my other half to take their health seriously , motivate me , let me motivate him , help each other ...
is that too much to ask for ? !
anyways hello to all and i miss you and I am glad to be making a come back and this time I will succeed because I can and I REFUSE TO LET ANYBODY STOP ME