This is a picture of my handsome "cowboy" husband.,...taken approximately 6 years ago.
There is a beautiful story behind this cowboy hat.
You see, I never liked my husband in hats. If he wanted to wear a baseball cap (of which I don`t like) I asked him to wear it backwards ,so ,he always wore it backwards. I liked it that way, I don`t know why and now it seems kind of silly .
This hat was found in Williams, Arizona in a store that made western attire of hats, boots, leather vests , etc.
We went inside this store because he wanted to see something...so I followed him in.
He had went down one aisle and I went down another . I didn`t know he was trying on hats . I turned around and didn`t recognize it was him right away, my heart actually leaped into my throat......he was sooooooooooo handsome in it...he took my breath away...literally. I can still feel that feeling when I see this hat.
I don`t remember what we paid for that hat but I would have paid any price. It suited him. He still wears it today and he looks just as handsome.
I discovered this picture today as I was going through old pictures. (the child is our youngest grson Matthew age 5...now age 11) I am having an emotional day and I can`t seem to stop my tears.
My sweet husband was diagnosed with Dementia 2 1/2 years ago at the young age of 60. It has been a roller coaster of learning and adjusting for us both ever since.
Things are changing all the time as this disease takes over his mind.I recognize him slipping away from me...ever so slowly. Ways that only a life partner would recognize .
I am going down memory lane today and even though I am enjoying the walk.....very sweet memories as I look at pictures....I am also reminded of what things may lie ahead. I am not trying to be sad but to rejoice in the 44 (actually 46 as we met at 16) years we have had together. However the past, present and future are all mixing together and making it difficult.
I am embracing this wonderful man as he is a wonderful husband, a fantastic father and the best Papa. I thank you for him,Lord.
Please be with me today as I reflect on the years of memories with my husband. Praying that there will be many more good times to share together.
Help me, Father, to be the patient and loving wife that he needs.
Help me to not complain but to make each and every day a blessing for him.
I have seen YOU work in our lives as well as felt YOUR loving arms around me , giving me peace during trial and tribulations.
I know there will be many more trials to come. Help me to reach out and feel YOUR presence at all times and find that "peace" that is promised.
I can`t go through this journey without YOU.
Sweet husband is wearing his hat on backwards because "I" prefer it. Can`t get any more loving than that!!!
This picture was taken in San Diego 4 years ago. The staute is called " Unconditional Surrender"