Monday, June 24, 2013
It seems like we've been going since school let out. I didn't realize that I has started scheduling the kids so quickly after school, but now we have a couple of weeks to slow down. I tried to get my son to go out for a walk this morning, but he didn't want to, so now we're working on things in the home, especially since it's nice and air conditioned.
I am starting to organize a few things that have been hanging around me for years. I have come to the conclusion that I need to live in the space I'm in at the moment and not keep on hanging onto so many things for the space I dream of. I still have some stuff I had when I just turned into an adult and I just don't fit that personality anymore. Now it's time to get rid of some of those things that have been hanging on for that long. It's time to have my stuff fit my current personality. If I can store it in the storage locker and never see it, it's not worth keeping. I like my storage locker for storing my gardening things during the winter, so I need to get rid of things that are just there for the sake of being there. I still have a lot of totes, and they will continue to let them take up space because they're not in the way in my storage locker and I know that one day they will be useful again, but the full totes need to be gone through.
I have done well in keeping my space clean. It may be a little cluttered, but it's clean. I can see the start of a hoarding issue, but I have grown past the need to hold onto those things and can let go. I am finally turning into an adult (so it took me nearly 20 years past becoming legal to do it, but it finally happened!) that can have a space to have friends over and allow my children to have a comfortable space. It kinda happened in the last couple of years, along with the weight loss. Something changed and I'm ready for others to be part of my life (besides my husband) and will have more of my friends over more frequently.
I'm not quite sure what it was for sure, but I'm more confident in myself and am starting to really enjoy life. I'm finding myself again, children suck that out of you for a while. I am discovering that I can be more than just a mother and wife. I am becoming the butterfly that I've always been destined to be.
The cocoon is being released physically in more than one way and that's allowing the emotional side of me to come through too. It's time to be the beautiful me there always was hiding inside!
Today's Holidays: Swim a Lap Day, Celebration of the Senses Day, UFO Day, International Fairy Day, National Catfish Day and National Pralines Day.