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Monday, June 24, 2013

Hello, My Friends! I have missed you!

To fully explain where I am at this moment, I must first tell you where I have been during the last two months. So first, I will review the past:

1) There were many distressing moments during the month of April. First I was sadly disappointed in what was to be marked a milestone in my journey to a better me. My first 5K walk. I know some of you remember the excitement I had in participating in this 5K walk. The walk was a disappointment in that it was unorganized and in no way challenging. I left the event frustrated, angry and very sad. I realized that there is little emphasis on a 5k walk. Reviewing other local events, I saw this same trend. Why don’t they support walks like they do runs? Maybe there are others out there that also want a challenging walk. Maybe there are others like me that may never be able to run due to physical or medical reasons.

2) My “simple” surgery on April 24, seemed to go well initially, but soon turned into a night mare. I learned that during the surgery I was “ripped open” accidentally by an instrument that caused problems as I was healing. This slowed my recovery tremendously.

3) I cycled into a major depressive episode and hit bottom in mid may. I was blessed by the observation from my wonderful counselor and inpatient treatment was avoided.
4) In late May I found that the new neighbor next door was a convicted pedophile recently released from prison. There was another murder down the street I lived on. While walking my dog I was approached by a scary man who asked me if I wanted a “fix.” Luckily my dog chose that time to be macho and began some serious growling.

5) Needless to say, we found a new place to live and began the stressful packing and unpacking ritual. I was disappointed in my children’s assistance during this move. I had the uncomfortable task of telling them how I felt about all the assistance I give them on a daily bases only to hear they complained about helping us one day. Many short prayers for guidance and patience were said during the two weeks it took to pack and move.

6) Among the days of packing and moving, I had several medical appointments to set up more appointments. I will be seeing a hematologist, a gynecological surgeon, and a dental surgeon in the near future. Do not panic, I do not have cancer that anyone is aware of. Just a lot of weird things going on!

7) Our family has lost a cherished member of our family. My mother’s sister has passed away. My Aunt was the first of my mother’s siblings to pass away. I was worried about my mom’s reaction. But I should have known there was no reason to worry. I must say that the funeral was the most uplifting funeral I have ever seen! It is such a nice feeling to know that you are physically in such a big family of believers as well as spiritually. My Aunts, Uncles and Cousins are such a blessing. And they are so open with their beliefs that you could feel the Holy Spirit moving in that place! I can only hope that the same is for my funeral!

8) But worst of all is my lack of care for my body. Some issues are due to medical reasons and some due to depression. But it is not hopeless, I know that I can get back on track.
So where am I going from here? Well, this past weekend I started earnestly reading the new book, The Spark Solution. I am going to jump back in full force and with both feet! I know that it may be bumpy at first. But if during the first month away, I only gained 3 lbs., well that is great! The most weight gain (not really sure how much but a terribly large amount) was gained in the last 30 days and I believe it may be side effect of one on my new medical problems.

Anyways, If I did it before, I can do it again.
So watch out world, Here I come!
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  • SAMI199
    I am so sorry -you hae been through the wringer...

    I am glad you are back,I missed you.

    1720 days ago
    Oof! What whammies life has been dealing you!

    But SO glad to see you returning! Perhaps we can try to pull together our OWN SparkPeople 5K Rally!

    I will share that there are many walkers who do the Binghamton Bridge "Run" in May which is pretty well organized. You might want to try that next year.

    Someone at work is moving too...that has GOT to be on everyone's top 10 list of unpleasant / challenging things to do.

    Looking forward to hearing all about your efforts to reclaim & celebrate your SPARK!

    1725 days ago

    wow, you've been through a lot!

    I am glad you are back to us now,

    missed you!
    1727 days ago
    Sorry for the loss of your aunt! My condolences to you and your family!
    And sorry you have had such a bad two months! Hang in there...sounds like you are taking care of things to make things better. Hope all turns out for the best for you soon!
    Welcome back! Keep sparking and moving right along! emoticon
    1728 days ago
    well of course you can do it again hugs
    1728 days ago
    emoticon I am so glad you are back. You sure have had your struggles. But glad you didn't give up. emoticon emoticon
    1729 days ago
  • BEEJAY49
    You have been through so much, but I'm really happy you are "home". :) You can do this, just take it one day at a time. I'm glad you got out of that neighborhood and had the wonderful protection of your furbabies. :) I know you will be back to healthy soon, so just hang in there! HUGS!
    1729 days ago
  • 4EVER21B
    Welcome Back!

    Your attitude is uplifting!
    1729 days ago
  • SHARON10002
    Unfortunately life does come at us at a fast and furious pace. But another way to look at this time is since that did happen, your spirit is wanting something better and it didn't want to wait any longer. I hope that you are happy in your new home, and that you are feeling safer. I think it's a blessing that you could do that on such "short notice"! So try to view all of this from a positive standpoint that the universe put you in a brand new starting position for something wonderful. Your new home and surroundings get you out of the old stagnant energy and place you bogged down in.
    1729 days ago
    So glad you are back! I've missed you. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1729 days ago
    emoticon back! You are certainly making lemonade out of the lemons you've been given. emoticon Congrats on only gaining three pounds!
    1729 days ago
    I am very sorry for all your bad life circumstances but it's time to put that in the past and move forward. Let go of the negative and reach for the positive in every day! Spark People help me to regain my composure and focus in the positive!

    Glad you are back and hope you can make it all better very quickly. Looks like you are quickly resolving all issues and taking a strong step in the the right direction.

    God bless you and your family! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1729 days ago
    Love your positive attitude and strength to overcome adversity. The latest Spark Solution Team started today, have you joined it?

    I agree with you about the lack of enthusiasm for 5K walks vs. runs...even if there is a walk/run combo, the walking part seems to receive less celebration. Maybe some day you could change that, and organize your own super-exciting and encouraging 5K walk!
    1729 days ago
    So glad you are back! emoticon
    1729 days ago
    Sometimes life does throw us a few hurdles. Welcome back.
    1729 days ago
  • DIETER27
    You can do it! Best of luck.....
    1729 days ago
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