Monday, June 24, 2013
So I knew Daughter had an appointment this morning at 8am. I remembered right across from her appointment there is a track (goes around a football field). So I decided to drop her off and then go walk until it was time to pick her up. I was sooo tired this morning (didn't sleep very well last night...didn't sleep enough, either), but I got up, got my workout clothes/shoes on, dropped her off, and walked at the track the whole time she was at her appointment. I did it! I walked for 40 minutes. I didn't count every single lap, but I can safely guess that I walked two miles. I feel good about that. I hope that today I can make at least relatively healthy(healthier) food choices than I have been lately, and that I can get a good sleep tonight, so I can workout tomorrow as well. I have a busy, busy, busy week ahead of me and I'm kind of intimidated by it.
On to other things, I called my FIL and MIL today and talked to them for a little over an hour. We've been estranged for four years and have just recently begun to take the walls down a little bit. We didn't even talk about "anything" of importance today, just shot the breeze with each other. It was nice. I hope we can repair our damaged relationship.
One of the friends I recently made on Facebook is doing this neat challenge where she tries to live a better life, a more full life, etc. It's kind of hard to explain and I'm in a rush so I'm not going to bother getting into it all right now. But she's encouraged me to do my own similar challenge. The ultimate goal is to help you live a more fulfilled life, be a better version of you, etc. I think one of my challenges really needs to be reaching out to the friends and family I actually DO have out there. I've been so hurt by people recently, so-called long-term "friends" that dropped me...I just have such a fear of friendships and intimacy at this point in my life. I just don't want to be hurt anymore, so I've been spending a lot of time away from people. Not Daughter and Husband, but "outsiders." Other people. I figured it was better to be lonely than to be around people that could potentially hurt me.....but is it really better? I'm starting to think maybe not...and I'm starting to think that I shouldn't miss out on people (or let them miss out on me!) just because a few individuals made some very bad, hurtful decisions. Not everyone will do that to me. I keep telling myself this, but my heart/head are still wrapping themselves around that one. Gotta just put one foot in front of the other.