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Tear it up?

Monday, June 24, 2013

Things have gone just terribly wrong for me in life these a multitude of ways. Ever since I got back from America I have been on a rapid downhill slide like I have never experienced before. Everywhere I turn things seem to be falling apart. Fortunately my little family is wonderful and we all love each other very much...the most important thing.

I cannot even talk about it all. I do not even feel like myself. It is a time for strength and a time that on many levels I feel so weak and I cannot talk about it...mainly because this is social media. I am I just tear it all up and start again? Get rid of this page and come back anonymously. Never state my unusual name on my new page and have more freedom...I wonder.

Trouble many of my Spark friends are so important. I suppose I could set my page to private but I enjoy making new friends and even still...I am not sure if I could say what I want to say. Or maybe I just scrap it all and go it alone? Keep the page but share much less about my life. I don't know.

I'm losing weight though. Who ho.
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  • IONA72
    Hi Ronna, I have so missed your wonderful writing, your wit and your support. So sorry times are tricky over there for you, I do hope an improvement is on the horizon. Please stay around and share with us, I took a SP break myself but I did miss the support and friendship it brings. emoticon
    1721 days ago
    I've had my head up somewhere and totally haven't been around on SP much lately, but you know something, I try occasionally to scroll through and see if you've been on. Glad you aren't going all anonymous on us.
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    1722 days ago
    I am sorry to read this. I understand only too well. I wish I could be there for you. Sending you prayers and much love.
    1728 days ago
    Hi - this is me Marty - I know I haven't been in contact lately - so sorry - you are a social media Friend. Please don't hide or leave - it is strange how strangers can connect -
    Life throws us curve balls - Life gets extremely busy - and we get lost -or on some side trail - we truly do need each other - I am so Happy your Family is loving and understanding and are your main support - You are Blessed - many people do not have that..

    1728 days ago
    I am so very sorry that I missed this. Whatever you do, please do not leave. I would consider changing your setting to private for a while. I am not sure what is going on. I had another friend who actually is going through an extremely difficult time (she was attacked and is impacted physically & of course mentally). She mentioned that she received cruel comments and was considering leaving. I can not imagine.

    Know that no matter what you decide, we support you and are here for you. I strongly suggest staying for selfish reasons but also I think it is helps each of us. I want what is best for you. I am just sort of speechless here which is odd for me. Please let me know if there is anything at all I can do. I still have sky miles. I could hope a plane and beat some people up for you or just give you a huge hug or just sit quietly beside you.
    1728 days ago
  • SAGE86
    Hi Ronna

    Do what is best for you, I hope you remember that all of your spark friends are here to help and support you!!!!
    1729 days ago
    Hi, Ronna !

    You've been under a lot of stress recently. It's no wonder you're feeling overwhelmed.

    Are you receiving some negative comments from some SP members ? I'll say it, I have noticed an increase in the number of odd (weirdos) recently. I would recommend setting your page to private for a short period. That would give you time to sort things out. It doesn't have to be forever. You could do it for the summer to see how you like it. The friends you've already added would be here to support you.

    If you feel that some people are being too intrusive, you could delete some of your older blogs. You know I'm a big believer that blogging/writing can be very cathartic. So, another thing you could do is keep a private journal of your own that no one else sees. That includes us. Later, if you feel like sharing some of these moments, then you can post what you feel fit to post.

    Could you start fresh ? Sure. Many members have done that. In fact, Coach Nancy just did. She resigned her position as a coach and is now a regular member just like the rest of us. It was the right change she needed for this time.

    You know we will support any decision you make !

    1729 days ago
    Talk as little or as much as you want/need to, but PLEASE don't cut yourself off from the love and support of your Spark family! I'm always here for you -- email me any time you need. I'll always listen and always give whatever support I can. You know how much I love you -- how much we all love you.
    1730 days ago
    Reading your comment makes me hurt. I am so sorry for your pain. If there is anything I can do let me know via sparkmail. I know I would miss our friendship and conversations.
    1730 days ago
    I know what you mean. I been trying to be conservative about what I share since my page is not private. I would miss you if you left. I would be happy to "listen" if you want to send me an email instead. I hope things start looking up for you soon. I'm glad that your family is there for you. emoticon emoticon
    1730 days ago
    Oh sweet Ronna, I'm feeling for you so much with all that you're going through. Please know that you could send an email message to me if you need to talk and I'll try my best to listen. I know that there are times in our lives when we need dear friends and for starters, I'm so glad that you have your loving family. I know too that sometimes we need to talk to someone out of the family. You really are a jewel and a treasure. Loving you with big emoticon
    1730 days ago
    Ah, that's rough. I am deliberately circumspect on here, as I'm sure you have noticed. You could try changing your username and letting friends know (and keep your real name out of it). If you have tons of friends, though, that could be tricky.

    Good job on losing, though!!
    1730 days ago
    Dear Ronna,

    I understand what you are saying and am so sorry you are dealing with all this uproar in your life right now. Mine is very much the same. I should send you an email. It may give you a good laugh to see that we are similar in many ways and it is amazing how some days I barely can drag my self out of bed but I do. For my Mom and my dog, but not for myself. But I'm hoping that will change. That this is just a phrase. I'm so happy like Maria said that you have your Family with you and they are your ROCK. That is so important.

    I love you Ronna and you know how tyo reach me dear if you feel the need to. You have always been there for me. Just please don't disappear without a warning. I and many others would be heartbroken and worried.

    Hugs - Kristan emoticon

    1730 days ago
    Hugs to you Ronna. You are in my thoughts & prayers. So sorry to hear that you are dealing with some difficult things in your life right now. Glad to hear that your family remains your "rock" & they are well. I am sorry that I haven't been here much to offer my friendship and any encouragement. Take care. Hugs.
    1730 days ago
    Massive care heading your way, seriously! And I understand the feeling to just "give up" and start over. Or the desire to share more about your personal life but not feeling the freedom. Where you feel led, use email (cut and paste into several if needed).

    This IS a season though, please remember that. All difficult times are temporary, not permanent. So glad that your family is doing well, but so very sorry for the things that have gone wrong! Truly.

    I'm here, and hang in there!
    1730 days ago
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