Monday, June 24, 2013
It is just too hard for me to concentrate. I think that each week will bring me peace and the ability to focus on changing old habits. However, as I wake up each day, I get slapped in the face with tasks and "stuff" that need doing--usually immediately!
Once in awhile I have a great day where I eat what I should and I drink plenty of good, fresh water, and I even get time to exercise. But those days are few and far between. I am not so depressed as I once was though. My doctor put me on a low dose of Lexapro and added Buspirone which helped me tremendously. Then, I began to wonder if I could get weaned off of these drugs and still feel OK. Well, over a few weeks' time, I have been taken off Buspirone. The doctor said to wait for a few months and see if I was still doing well before starting the process to take me off the Lexapro.
I still weight the same and I still face myself in the mirror and wonder how in the world I got this way. I guess I have to figure out exactly what would help me make a change? I'll see.