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A not so great day :(

Sunday, June 23, 2013

I don't know why, but I've been feeling a little down lately. I am very happy that I have lost weight, but I am so overwhelmed with how much more I need to lose. Yesterday I went shopping for some summer clothes, that went horrible. I hated how I looked in everything I tried on. I really don't want to sound bitter, or negative, but all I could focus on was, how fat my arms looked, or my "rolls" and big legs.
Today I ate horribly and had no self control. emoticon

All of these feelings made me realize that I truly don't want to quit and give up. And even after I ate gawd knows how many calories, it didn't make me feel any better. So here I am putting these thoughts and fears out there.
I think it's time for me to put away the scale (I weigh my self multiple times daily) and start focusing on what I can do every day to become more healthy.

Thanks for listening.

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3CLICKS 6/29/2013 8:50AM

    It sounds like you realize it for what it is, just a bad day. I hope you never give up because you are such an inspiration to the rest of us who are just starting out (or should I say starting over again). I'm right around the same weight you were when you began, and feel like I have SO far to go, but looking at your photos really motivates me, because I realize just how much difference just 20 or 30 pounds can make. When you have a lot of weight to lose, it's nearly impossible not to get off track or have negative feelings about yourself once in a while, but the key is to keep moving in the right direction, even if the path isn't always quite so straight and narrow. Sounds (and looks) to me like you already know that though :-)

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GMS2606 6/28/2013 2:28PM

  This is hat we call the shame spiral and you need to bust out of that. We all have our "moments" but it should not keep you from achieving your goals. To get to where you want to be you can not look back or ahead. You need to stay in the now. What are you doing/will do to be successful? Join me on Facebook Gina's Fitness Journey for motivation and strategies to stay focused on your fitness.

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SHELLYBABE2 6/24/2013 9:50AM

    Do you know I think everyone who has a lot of weight to lose hits this point. You have come so far, feel so good, feel slimmer etc then look in the mirror and think well I still have so far to go, look bad etc etc etc and the frustrations and other feelings that you'd rather not have crowd in to overwhelm you. All I can say is that occassional falling off the healthy wagon does not undo all the good you've done, providing you clamber back on board and stick with trying to do the best you can. Don't look to the weight you still have to lose only focus on the positive, how far you've come, how much you have lost etc etc etc and if you'd not lost the weight that you have you would look even worse than you felt you did. I know it's not always easy keeping this going for the long haul but I'm the queen of restarting and clambering back on that wagon lol. Take comfort in the fact you're not alone, try to find a positive perspective and work on not feeding the bad feelings! Tell me when you figure that one out as I'd love to know, I have improved but still go back to it even though you know that's what got you in this place to start with!

Take care, try not to be too hard on yourself & remember a blip can be recovered from!

I know how much better you look from your before and after pics & unfortunately we are our own worst critics at times, remember to love yourself bumps and lumps included, they aren't what make you, you!

I know you can do this, so head high, need to just get through this time & I promise it does pass!

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LIZ324_NYC 6/24/2013 9:19AM

    I know how you feel. It's hard to go summer shopping and hate how you look in
everything!! emoticon
Try to focus on your choices today to get you to where you want to be this time next year. Don't deprive yourself either. Have that small milkshake in the afternoon, but then make sure dinner is protein and a lot of veggies so you stay in your calorie range! It's a nice compromise. emoticon As for the scale... don't get on it more than once a week or two.
Hang in there!!

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JAYDEE1211 6/24/2013 6:59AM

    Keep hanging in there. Please know that we (your fellow sparkers) send you our best wishes and support. These little hiccups help us to gain strength.

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TEAMNICOLE 6/23/2013 11:22PM

    First of all YOU are NOT ALLOWED to quit! So let's just get that out there to start! Second, YOU are one of people who has pushed me so far! I rode my bike 16.15 miles this morning because you showed me that I could! If it wasn't for success like yours I would be right next to you today, on the couch, eating ho ho's! Everyone is going to have those days but think about how far you have come!!! This is not a weight loss challenge, this is a life challenge! So it doesn't really matter if it takes you another year to get where you want to be because you are going to be healthy forever!!! What does one more year have on the REST OF YOUR LIFE! YOU have fire inside you! We know that because we have seen what YOU CAN DO! You are a beautiful person! We know this because we see you when others need that little extra push. Sending goodies, words of kindness and wisdom, hugs and whatever some one might need to keep that spark! Who cares if you binged today! It is not too late to get up early in the morning and push yourself that much harder!! Your body will do what you let it! You are a strong woman! You make me strong! Get some good sleep and I hope you have a better day tomorrow! I wake up at 5 am for my bike ride, so I will be looking for your status! Get some rest girl, because tomorrow we go into OVERDRIVE!!! emoticon

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SUPER_ACE115 6/23/2013 11:16PM

    Sorry you've been feeling so bad. emoticon Just don't give up on yourself. You can do this! emoticon

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