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Awareness helping mood management and I AM the same size Medium as other people

Sunday, June 23, 2013

1. Awareness has helped me react better when I feel stressed. Still going to the doc to make sure hormones are in check or figure out if anything else is going on.

2. We just returned from a grueling day of helping family move from one house to another. Silly me wore a white jacket (what can I say it was way to early when I got dressed this AM). I was very fearful the dark sweatshirt my sister-in-law loaned me wouldn't fit. After all, she is so much smaller than I can ever hope to be - she's not tiny but she is fit and thin and has a much smaller bone structure. I reluctantly pulled it on when I had a moment alone so I could pull it off and claim I was too warm to wear it anyway when I found it to be too tight. But it fit. A comfortable and perfect fit at that.

While with hubby on a trip between houses later, I told him that I didn't think I was similar sized as his sister and I feel much bigger. He said I'm not at all bigger and laughed. I said that I thought mediums I wore were different from other people's mediums. I know there are some differences, but in general that it nuts.

I've read it here. I know it's not unusual, but it IS hard it is to comprehend my new size after being bulging out of size 20W or XXL just over two years ago. It's really-really nice to get to celebrate this feeling now that victories like this less frequent than earlier in this process.
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  • CHERYLA2012
    I relate to this 100% - the reflection in the mirror just doesn't seem to seer itself into the brain to replace the much-large reflection that's still residing there.

    We're the ones who have to change the reality we're seeing and understand that it does apply to us - that we have achieved a significant change.

    Just two weeks ago I put on one of my husband's medium tee shirts for a lark to show him it wouldn't fit... and the lark was on me as I pulled it down over my body. I just stared at myself in the full-length mirror with a semi-shocked look on my face. On Sunday, I decided to see if a pair of his jeans fit... same thing.

    It's a learning curve - and eventually we'll "get it!"
    1706 days ago
    I surely understand this...I need a reality check from my hubs all the time (although not so much anymore). The "am I as big as her?" or "gosh, she looks good and hubs telling me I look the same?!?!"

    It's difficult for the mind. Too bad too, it would be so much easier if we could see ourselves as we really are.
    1711 days ago
  • _JODI404
    It really is awesome to have these victories to celebrate!

    I think it is very normal to have your mind not fully aware of your new smaller size. It's such a positive thing... not sure why the mind doesn't want to seize that and run with it... but I know it's a common experience.

    Congrats on being a size Medium!! That's a long way from XXL!!

    Hope everything is OK with the hormones. Good to have check ups.

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    1726 days ago
    This made me smile. I'm sorry there's some hormonal question going on (being a woman can be tough sometimes) but the realization that you're medium is the normal medium.. well, I can just see your face as you come to accept that to be true.
    Honey, in ~my~ eyes you are tiny. Not in an unhealthy way, but compared to my big ole gargantuan self LOL you're thin, fit, healthy, and attractive. I'm glad you had some tangible sense of your new reality.
    1729 days ago
  • KANOE10
    That was a lovely moment when you realized you fit the same size as your sister in law. You are now that small and have done so well keeping your weight off. I am still getting used to the 100 pound smaller me and still wonder if the smaller sizes will fit..

    1729 days ago
    Congratulations on the sweatshirt moment! I'm so happy for you!

    It takes time for the mind to catch up with the body.

    1729 days ago
    I'm proud for you Suzie. That is a beautiful moment of clarity.
    1729 days ago
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