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taking a moment to reflect

Sunday, June 23, 2013

I have gotten off track since I went out of town for my grandson's birth.


I need to take time to reflect on how I got here, why I came to SparkPeople in the first place, and what it is that I say to myself that makes it "ok" to accept less than my best effort in this weight loss journey.

Tonight I am really eager for the sun to come up tomorrow so I can hit the road and do another 5K.


For some reason I am sabotaging myself in my food...not that I am eating too many calories, I'm not. In fact, today I only ate 1239. Yesterday, I ate 1385, which is a bit high for me, but still under the max of 1500. Last Wednesday, I only ate 777, and I didn't even log my food on Thursday and Friday because I was busy, busy. Still, that is no excuse. I'm getting sloppy with my routine and if I don't correct it, I will lose it and go back to being just a lazy, fat couch potato who prefers junk food over nutritious food.

The bottom line is that this is my journey and I can either commit myself to do it right, or I can fool around another year and still be obese.

I had a wake-up call last night. When I looked at my weight loss over time report, I saw that right now, I should be about 12- 15 pounds lighter than I am. That means I'm not working hard enough at this. I've been on this same plateau for too long (about a month). It's time to get my stuff together and do this right.

The good news is that I am finally beginning to feel better mentally. I've been depressed for two years, but it id finally beginning to lift.

I think I found out what the problem was with the sun: a medicine I am taking makes me photosensitive, and the sunscreen I was using was old. (I read online that some sunscreens can make photosensitivity worse.) Since I bought a new tube of sunscreen, I haven't had the problems with the Fibromyalgia flares after walking/running or doing yard work. Plus, I'm going out earlier in the morning to run and later in the evening to do my yard work.

I think I'll look back over my blogs and remember from whence I came. Also, I think I'll look at my goals again and rework them. Perhaps they are feeling like too much of a chore or something...too much to keep track of. I noticed that some people have simple goals...just a couple or maybe three instead of a long list like I have. Maybe my list of goals feels discouraging to me...too much for where I am in this journey.

There has been a lot of things that have happened since I came here...things that were very stressful. Some of them, I haven't written about here.

Maybe it is time to make my vision board. I've put it off long enough. There was so much going on and then I forgot it until a couple of days ago when I saw someone's board.

One thing I know for sure is this: maintaining a positive attitude is a must.

I don't know.
I'm up for hearing what you have to say.
Have any of you gotten off track and lost motivation? If so, what did you do to get back on track?

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    Josie, it is about progress not perfection....also look for NSV along the way. You will figure it out and get there....one step at a time! emoticon
    1702 days ago
    We are not metronomes, we will get off beat sometime. I say it is important that we are consistent 60 - 70% of the time. I think in May in retrospect, I was not keeping time. I struggled with exercise. Always making excuses or changes to the routine = not doing anything. Felt down. But I released something that was happening to me at work and I have felt much better.
    1703 days ago
  • KAB7801
    You have to just do it. I do a few 10 min videos to try to get back on track
    Then hopefully I want to do more
    1703 days ago
    You can do it! Don't give up!
    1703 days ago
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