So many thoughts...
Sunday, June 23, 2013
...so little access to a computer. I can't type while I'm running or driving or even riding the bus! And then I forget what I was going to blog about.
I had a bit of a binge last night. I came home after a somewhat unsatisfying night out (marginal performance at the theater, uninspiring company) and felt like I still wanted to do something else. I guess I was lonely. So I ate a bunch of cheese. And yogurt. And some dried fruit. Nothing really unhealthy, but the fact that I was eating it was unhealthy for my soul. And since there was so much of it, it pushed my calorie count way up for the day.
I had run 11 miles earlier, so I actually *didn't* consume more than I burned, but I was a little alarmed that I could negate almost two hours of working out "just like that." Perhaps my body was calling out for more food.... perhaps my heart was calling out for something else I couldn't identify. I had some of the same feelings this morning and ended up eating about 10 dried figs. (Sounds nice, unless you realize they're 25 cals a piece and that much fiber at once will wreak a little havoc on the most fiber-ready digestive system.)
So I ran three miles today just to get out and do something, and it led me to do some abs and arms as well. I want to say that not all is lost, but I really feel like I slid backward this weekend. I can say for sure that I'm kind of sad, missing my hubby and wishing I didn't have to work tomorrow. The skies also squashed my plans for mountain biking, since it's pouring rain.
Oh, but one of the things I was going to mention was that yesterday after our run, a friend remarked that I was losing weight. It may be a conspiracy since he's the spouse of the friend who gave me the compliment last weekend... but he's a former action figure who's been trying to lose some extra weight he put on last year, so I felt like he was being sincere and relatable. I had been encouraging him when I could tell he dropped some pounds, too.
I'll take it. Both the physical and emotional parts of this journey seem to be coming together, they're just GOING SO SLOWLY.... sigh.