Sunday, June 23, 2013
Yesterday was the first time in over a month I didn't log in... yesterday was the day we found out my FIL has stage 4 terminal pancreatic cancer. I am at a loss for words right now, and am trying to stay true to Christ and rely on Him to be the light in this darkness but it is so overwhelmingly dark. 12 years ago my MIL lost her 1st husband to the same disease. A family that is going through this unimaginable pain, not once, but twice. A family that started to look for God again and believe that there was a loving God is faced with yet another great loss. How can I explain a loving God to them? How can I be a light when all they see is hurt, pain, suffering, loss. I know that even though we mourn, the angels rejoice at another life Home... but it is hard to hold on during this time. The doctors said he has a month at most. we just found out 2 weeks ago that he was sick, and we just found out yesterday that the tumors are growing at a rapid rate. His kidney function is only at 16%. Our son never got to meet his first grandpa (my husbands dad) because the disease took him at the young age of 50! And now he is loosing his other grandpa that he loves so much to the same disease at the young age of 59. Please pray for a miracle, pray for God to come to our family at this dark time and bring a peace and comfort that surpasses all understanding. And pray that I could find the words necessary and be the light that continues to shine in a world that is so dark right now. Thank you everyone.