Sunday, June 23, 2013
Just reporting in.
On Friday I held out for as long as I could, but eventually succumbed and binged in the evening, and totally gave up on working.
Yesterday started really nicely but later in the day I ended up bingeing again.
Both times were out of uneasiness about not getting enough work done, and ironically as usual, bingeing makes me feel in such a bad mood that I definitely don't get any work done afterwards.
So today I really, really need to get back on track. I already overate this morning and am not happy about it, which is why I'm here blogging. I have a pretty strong urge to binge, but I will not give in to black-and-white thinking. I can tell it's a craving - I checked in with myself and wasn't physically hungry, but the overwhelming drive to find something with which to satisfy the craving won out, so I started eating more when wasn't hungry.
+ Yesterday I had a good run with my friends. I haven't been out on a weekend run for some time due, but it seems physical therapy is already helping - my hip didn't really hurt.
+ Yesterday I also met with my friend and his son at a bakery and had a good time hanging out (though unfortunately this was the source of binge food afterwards).
+ Even though I didn't get any work done yesterday, I went to sleep early after the binge and thus caught up on sleep.
+ I'm trying to think positively by telling myself that this morning's overeating isn't as bad as a binge, and that I have a chance to turn things around today by doing the next right thing.